Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
Imagine such a nature, denied from the beginning! The parents of its
youth are gone!--the brother and the sister--the father and the friend!
It is destitute, utterly, of these! It is also destitute of those
resources of fortune which are supposed to be sufficient to command
them. It is thrown upon the protection, the charge of strangers. Not
strangers--no! From strangers, perhaps, but little could be expected. It
is thrown upon the care of relatives--a father's brother! Could the tie
be nearer? Not well! But it had been better if strangers had been its
guardians. Then it might have learned to endure more patiently. At
least, it would have felt less keenly the pangs inflicted by neglect,
contumely, injustice. In this situation it grows up, like some sapling
torn from its parent forest, its branches hacked off, its limbs
lacerated! It grows up in a stranger soil. The sharp winds assail it
from every quarter. But still it lives--it grows. It grows wildly,
rudely, ungracefully; but it is strong and tough, in consequence of its
exposure and its trials. Its vitality increases with every collision
which shakes and rends it; until, in the pathetic language of relatives
unhappily burdened with such encumbrances, “it seems impossible to kill
it!”
I will not say that mine tried to kill me, but I do say that they took
precious little care that I was not killed. The effect upon my body was
good, however--the effect of their indifference. This roughening process
is a part of physical training which very few parents understand. It is
essential--should be insisted on--but it must not be accompanied with a
moral roughening, which forces upon the mind of the pupil the conviction
that the ordeal is meant for his destruction rather than for his
good. There will be a recoil of the heart--a cruel recoil from the
humanities--if such a conviction once fills the mind. It was this recoil
which I felt! With warm affections seeking for objects of love--with
feelings of hope and veneration, imploring for altars to which to attach
themselves--I was commanded to go alone. The wilderness alone was open
to me: what wonder if my heart grew wild and capricious even as that of
the savage who dwells only amid their cheerless recesses? With a smile
judiciously bestowed--with a kind word, a gentle tone, an occasional
voice of earnest encouragement--my uncle and aunt might have fashioned
my heart at their pleasure. I should have been as clay in the hands
of the potter--a pliant willow in the grasp of the careful trainer. A
nature constituted like mine is, of all others, the most flexible; but
it is also, of all others, the most resisting and incorrigible. Approach
it with a judicious regard to its affections, and you do with it what
you please. Let it but fancy that it is the victim of your injustice,
however slight, and the war is an interminable one between you!
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