Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
My heart had been singularly softened by the most touching associations.
We sat together in our piazza, beneath a flood of the richest and
balmiest moonlight, screened only from its silvery blaze by interposing
masses of the woodbine, mingled with shoots of oleander, arbor-vitae,
and other shrub-trees. The mild breath of evening sufficed only to lift
quiveringly their green leaves and glowing blossoms, to stir the hair
upon our cheeks, and give to the atmosphere that wooing freshness which
seems so necessary a concomitant of the moonlight. The hand of Julia
was in mine. There were few words spoken between us; love has its own
sufficing language, and is content with that consciousness that all is
right which implores no other assurances. Julia had just risen from
the piano: we had both been touched with a deeper sense of the thousand
harmonies in nature, by listening to those of Rossini; and now, gazing
upon some transparent, fleecy, white clouds that were slowly pressing
forward in the path of the moonlight, as if in duteous attendance upon
some maiden queen, our mutual minds were busied in framing pictures from
the fine yet fantastic forms that glowed, gathering on our gaze. I felt
the hand of Julia trembling in my own. Her head sank upon my shoulder; I
felt a warm drop fall from her eyes upon my hand, and exclaimed--
“Julia, you weep! wherefore do you weep, dear wife?”
“With joy, my husband! My heart is full of joy. I am so happy, I can
only weep. Ah! tears alone speak for the true happiness.”
“Ah! would it last, Julia--would it last!”
“Oh, doubt not that it will last. Why should it not t What have we to
fear?”
Mine was a serious nature. I answered sadly, if not gloomily:--
“Because it is a joy of life that we feel, and it must share the
vicissitudes of life.”
“True, true, but love is a joy of eternal life as well as of this.”
There was a beautiful and consoling truth in this one little sentence,
which my self-absorption was too great, at the time, to suffer me to
see. Perhaps even she herself was not fully conscious of the glorious
and pregnant truth which lay at the bottom of what she said. Love is,
indeed, not merely a joy of eternal life: it is THE joy of eternal
life!--its particular joy--a dim shadow of which we sometimes feel in
this--pure, lasting, comparatively perfect, the more it approaches, in
its performances and its desires, the divine essence, of which it is so
poor a likeness. We should so live, so love, as to make the one run into
the other, even as a small river runs down, through a customary channel,
into the great deeps of the sea. Death should be to the affections
a mere channel through which they pass into a natural, a necessary
condition, where their streams flow with more freedom, and over which,
harmoniously controlling, as powerful, the spirit of love broods ever
with “dovelike wings outspread.” I answered, still gloomily, in the
customary world commonplaces:--
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