Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
Archimedes asked but little for the propulsion of the world. The jealous
spirit--a spirit jealous like mine--asks still for the moving of that
little but densely-populous world, the human heart. I forgot the sweet
tones of my wife's words--the pure-souled words themselves--tones and
words which, while their sounds yet lingered in my ears, I could not
have questioned--I did not dare to question. The tempter grew in the
ascendant the moment I had passed out of her sight; and when I met
William Edgerton the next day, he acquired greatly-increased power over
my understanding.
William Edgerton had evidently undergone a change. He no longer met my
glances boldly with his own. Perhaps, had he done so, my eyes would have
been the first to shrink from the encounter. He looked down, or looked
aside, when he spoke to me; his words were few, timorous, hesitating,
but studiously conciliatory; and he lingered no longer in my presence
than was absolutely unavoidable. Was there not a consciousness in this?
and what consciousness? The devil at my heart answered, and answered
with truth, “He loves your wife.” It would have been well, perhaps, had
the cruel fiend said nothing farther. Alas! I would have pardoned, nay,
pitied William Edgerton, had the same chuckling spirit not assured me
that she also was not insensible to him. I was continually reminded of
the words, “Your business must, of course, be attended to!”--“What a
considerate wife!” said the tempter; “how very unusual with young wives,
with whom business is commonly the very last consideration!”
That very day, I found, on reaching home, that William Edgerton had
been there--had gone there almost the moment after he had left me at the
office; and that he had remained there, obviously at work in the studio,
until the time drew nigh for my return to dinner. My feelings forbade
any inquiries. These, facts were all related by my wife herself. I did
not ask to hear them. I asked for nothing more than she told. The dread
that my jealousy should be suspected made me put on a sturdy aspect of
indifference; and that exquisite sense of delicacy, which governed every
movement of my wife's heart and conduct, forbade her to say--what yet
she certainly desired I should know--that, in all that time, she had not
seen him, nor he her. She had studiously kept aloof in her chamber so
long as he remained. Meanwhile, I brooded over their supposed long
and secret interviews. These I took for granted. The happiness they
felt--the mutual smile they witnessed--the unconscious sighs they
uttered! Such a picture of their supposed felicity as my morbid
imagination conjured up would have roused a doubly damned and damning
fiend in the heart of any mortal.
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