Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
“Indeed, but I am very sure you do not trespass upon either. He is an
idle, good fellow, relishes anything better than business, and you know
has such a passion for painting and pictures that its indulgence seems
to justify anything to his mind. He will forget everything in their
pursuit.”
All this was said with a studious indifference of manner. I was
singularly successful in concealing the expression of that agony which
was gnawing all the while upon my heart. I could smile, too, while I was
speaking--while I was suffering! Look calmly into her face and smile,
with a composure, a strength, the very consciousness of which was a
source of terrible overthrow to me at last. I was surprised to perceive
an air of chagrin upon Julia's countenance, which was certainly
unstudied. She was one of those who do not well conceal or cloak their
real sentiments. The faculty of doing so is usually much more strongly
possessed by women than by men--much more easily commanded--but SHE
had little of it. Why should she wear this expression of
disappointment--chagrin! Was she really anxious that I should attend
her? I began to think so--began to relent, and think of promising that I
would go with her, when she somewhat abruptly laid her hand upon my arm.
“Edward, you leave me too frequently. You stay from me too long,
particularly at evening. Do not forget, dear husband, how few female
friends I have; how few friends of any sort--how small is my social
circle. Besides, it is expected of all young people, newly married,
that they will be frequently together; and when it is seen that they are
often separate--that the wife goes abroad alone, or goes in the company
of persons not of the family, it begets a suspicion that all is not
well--that there is no peace, no love, in the family so divided. Do
not think, Edward, that I mean this reproachfully--that I mean
complaint--that I apprehend the loss of your love: oh no! I dread too
greatly any such loss to venture upon its suspicion lightly, but I would
guard against the conjectures of others--”
“So, then, it is not that you really wish my company. It is be-cause you
would simply maintain appearances.”
“I would do both, Edward. God knows I care as little for mere
appearances, so long as the substances, are good, as you do; but I
confess I would not have the neighbors speak of me as the neglected
wife; I would not have you the subject of vulgar reproach.”
“To what does all this tend?” I demanded impatiently.
“To nothing, Edward, if by speaking it I make you angry.”
“Do not speak it, then!” was my stern reply.
“I will not; do not turn away--do not be angry:” here she sobbed once,
convulsively; but with an effort of which I had not thought her capable,
she stifled the painful utterance, and continued grasping my wrist as
she spoke with both her hands, and speaking in a whisper--
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