Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
With some painstaking, I was enabled to find and force an interview with
Edgerton that very day. He made an effort to elude me--such an effort as
he could make without allowing his object to be seen. But I was not to
be baffled. Having once determined upon my course, I was a puritan in
the inveteracy with which I persevered in it. But it required no small
struggle to approach the criminal, and so utterly to subdue my own sense
of wrong, my suspicions and my hostility, as to keep in sight no more
than the wishes and fears of the father. I have already boasted of my
strength in some respects, even while exposing my weaknesses in others.
That I could persuade Edgerton and my wife, equally, of my indifference,
even at the moment when I was most agonized by my doubts of their
purity, is a sufficient proof that I possessed a certain sort of
strength. It was a moral strength, too, which could conceal the pangs
inflicted by the vulture, even when it was preying upon the vitals of
the best affections and the dearest hopes of the heart. It was necessary
that I should put all this strength in requisition, as well to do what
was required by the father, as to pierce, with keen eye, and considerate
question, to the secret soul of the witness. I must assume the blandest
manner of our youthful friendship; I must say kind things, and say them
with a certain frank unconsciousness. I must use the language of a good
fellow--a sworn companion--who is anxious to do justice to my friend's
father, and yet had no notion that my friend himself was doing the
smallest thing to justify the unmeasured fears of the fond old man. Such
was my cue at first. I am not so sure that I pursued it to the end; but
of this hereafter.
My attention having been specially drawn to the personal appearance of
William Edgerton, I was surprised, if not absolutely shocked, to see
that the father had scarcely exaggerated the misery of his condition. He
was the mere shadow of his former self. His limbs, only a year before,
had been rounded even to plumpness. They were now sharp and angular. His
skin was pale, his looks haggard; and that apprehensive shrinking of
the eye, which had called forth the most keen expressions of fear and
suspicion from the father's lips, was the prominent characteristic which
commanded my attention during our brief interview. His eye, after the
first encounter, no longer rose to mine. Keenly did I watch his face,
though for an instant only. A sudden hectic flush mantled its paleness.
I could perceive a nervous muscular movement about his mouth, and he
slightly started when I spoke.
“Edgerton,” I said, with tones of good-humored reproach, “there's no
finding you now-a-days. You have the invisible cap. What do you do with
yourself? As for law, that seems destined to be a mourner so far as you
are concerned. She sits like a widow in her weeds. You have abandoned
her: do you mean to abandon your friends also?”
He answered, with a faint attempt to smile:--
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