Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
But the sacrifice was to be made; and my imagination immediately grew
active for my compensation, by describing a woodland home--a spot,
remote from the crowd, where I should carry my household gods, and set
them up for my exclusive and uninvaded worship. The whole world-wide
West was open to me. A virgin land, rich in natural wealth and splendor,
it held forth the prospect of a fair field and no favor to every
newcomer. There it is not possible to keep in thraldom the fear less
heart and the active intellect. There, no petty circle of society
can fetter the energies or enfeeble the endeavors. No mocking, stale
conventionalities can usurp the place of natural laws, and put genius
and talent into the accursed strait-jacket of routine! Thither will I
go. I remembered the late conference with my friend Kingsley, and the
whole course of my reasoning on the subject of my removal was despatched
in half an hour. “I will go to Alabama.”
Such was my resolution. I was the man to make sudden resolutions. This,
however, reasoned upon with the utmost circumspection, seemed the very
best that I could make. My wife, yet pure, was rescued from the danger
that threatened her; I was saved the necessity of taking a life so dear
to my benefactor; and the unhappy young man himself--the victim to a
blind passion--having no longer in his sight the temptation which misled
him, would be left free to return to better thoughts, and the accustomed
habits of business and society. I had concluded upon my course in the
brief interval which followed my interview with William Edgerton and my
return home.
The next day I saw his father. I communicated the assurance of the son,
and renewed my own, that neither drunkenness nor gaming was a vice. What
it was that afflicted him I did not pretend to know, but I ascribed it
to want of employment; a morbid, unenergetic temperament; the fact that
he was independent, and had no rough necessities to make him estimate
the true nature and the objects of life; and, at the close, quietly
suggested that possibly there was some affair of the heart which
contributed also to his suffering. I did not deny that his looks were
wretched, but I stoutly assured the old man that his parental fears
exaggerated their wretchedness. We had much other talk on the
subject. When we were about to separate for the day, I declared my own
determination in this manner:--
“I have just decided on a step, Mr. Edgerton, which perhaps will
somewhat contribute to the improvement of your son, by imposing some
additional tasks upon him. I am about to emigrate for the southwest.”
“You, Clifford? Impossible! What puts that into your head?”
It was something difficult to furnish any good reason for such a
movement. The only obvious reason spoke loudly for iny remaining where I
was.
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