Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
“No more, Kingsley. I tell you, matters must go on. Edgerton can now
only be driven from my house by my wife. If she expels him, I shall be
too happy not to forgive him. But if she makes it necessary that the
expulsion shall be effected by my hands, and with violence--God have
mercy upon both of them for I shall not. Good night!”
“But why will you go? Stay awhile longer. Be not rash--do nothing
precipitately, Clifford.”
I smiled bitterly in replying:--
“You need not fear me. Have I not proved myself patient--patient until
you pronounced me cold and indifferent? Why should you suppose that,
having waited and forborne so long I should be guilty of rashness now?
No, Kingsley! My wife is very dear to me--how dear I will not say;
I will be deliberate for her sake--for my own. I will be sure, very
sure--quite sure;--but, once sure!--Good night.”
Kingsley followed me to the door. His last injunctions exhorted me
to forbearance and deliberation. I silenced them by a significant
repetition of the single words, “Good night--good night!” and hurried,
with every feeling of anxiety and jealousy awakened, in the direction of
my cottage.
CHAPTER XLVI.
THE UNBRIDLED MADNESS.
The night did not promise to be a good one. The clouds were scudding
wildly from east to west. The air was moist and chill. There was no
light from moon or stars, and I strode with difficulty, though still
rapidly, through the unpaved streets. I was singularly and painfully
excited by the conversation with Kingsley. My own experience before,
had prepared me to become so, with the slightest additional provocation.
Facts were rapidly accumulating to confirm my fears, and lessen my
doubts. That dark, meaning letter of Mrs. Delaney! The adventure in the
streamlet.--The scream--the look--the secrecy! What a history seemed to
be compressed in these few topics.
I hurried forward--I was now among the trees. I had almost to grope my
way, it was so dark. I was helped forward by some governing instincts.
My fiend was busy all the while. I fancied, now, that there was
something exulting in his tone. But he drove me forward without
forbearance. I felt that these clouds in the sky--this gloom and
excitement in my heart--were not for nothing. Every gust of wind brought
to me some whisper of fear; and there seemed a constant murmur among the
trees--one burden--whose incessant utterance was only shame and wo. How
completely the agony of one's spirit sheds its tone of horror upon the
surrounding world. How the flowers wither as our hearts wither--how
sickly grows sunlight and moonlight, in our despair--how lonely and
utter sad is the breath of winds, when our bosoms are about to be laid
bare of hope and sustenance by the brooding tempest of our sorrows.
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