Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
It was supposed by Julia and certain of her friends that an event so
solemn, so impressive, and so unexpected, as the death of Mr. Clifford,
would reasonably affect the mind of his widow; and the concessions which
I had meditated to address to herself and her late husband were now
so varied as to apply solely to herself. I took considerable pains
in preparing my letter, with the view to soften her prejudices and
asperities, as well as to convince her reason. There was one suggestion
which Julia was disposed to insist on, to which, however, I was
singularly averse. In the destitution of Mrs. Clifford, her diminished
and still diminishing resources, not to speak of her loneliness, she
thought that I ought to tender her a home with us. Had she been any
other than the captious, cross-grained creature that she was--bad her
misfortunes produced only in part their legitimate and desirable effects
of subduing her perversity--I should have had no sort of objection. But
I knew her imperious and unreasonable nature; and I may here add,
that, by this time, I knew something of my own: I was a man of despotic
character. The constant conflicts which I had had from boyhood,
resulting as they had done in my frequent successes and final triumph,
had, naturally enough, made me dictatorial. Sanguine in temperament,
earnest in character, resolute in impulse, I was necessarily arbitrary
in mood. It was not likely that Mrs. Clifford would forget her
waywardnesses, and it was just as unreasonable that I should submit to
her insolences. Besides, one's home ought to be a very sacred place. It
is necessary that the peace there should compensate and console for the
strifes without. To hope for this in any household where there is more
than one master, would bo worse than idle. Nay, even if there were
peace, the chances are still great that there would be some lack of
propriety. Domestic regulations would become inutile. Children and
servants would equally fail of duty and improvement under conflicting
authorities; and all the sweet social harmonies of family would be
jarred away by misunderstandings if not bickerings, leading to coldness,
suspicion, and irremediable jealousies. These things seemed to threaten
me from the first moment when Julia submitted to me her desire that her
mother should be invited to take up her abode with us. I reasoned with
her against it; suggested all the grounds of objection which I really
felt; and reviewed at length the long history of our connection from my
childhood up, which had been distinguished by her constant hostility and
hate. “How,” I asked, “can it be hoped that there will be any change
for the better now? She is the same woman, I the same man! It is not
reasonable to think that the result of our reunion will be other than it
has been.” But Julia implored.
“I know what you say is reasonable--is just; but, dear Edward, she is my
mother, and she is alone.”
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