At first I hesitated, for I realised the precariousness of my own
position, but my visitor, mistaking my hesitation for a desire to get
more money out of him, said, "I'd pay you more if I could, but I swear
I have hardly a penny in the world. Do help me if you can; you may be
glad of a similar lift yourself some day." Of course I hastened to
assure him that nothing could well have been farther from my thoughts
than the idea of exploiting his misery. Three shillings and sixpence a
week would pay me well, and indeed was the sum I had been vainly asking
for that room for a long time.
He thanked me effusively and departed. After closing hours, he managed
to get his effects transferred to my front room, and when I saw the
kind of stuff he had, I could not wonder at his anxiety lest it should
fall into the hands of those harpies, who batten upon the hardships
of people who have their homes broken up. A terrible tragedy indeed,
when the savings of an industrious lifetime invested in furniture are
knocked down for, in many cases, less shillings than they cost pounds
originally, and are then immediately resold to the inner gang for an
enhanced price, to appear in a few days' time in some local furnishing
warehouse at almost as high a price as their original figure.
The next day, my poor little guest came the expected cropper. His
shop was closed, and he disappeared with his wife and family. I felt
a wistful curiosity to know how he was faring, and yet a curious
diffidence lest I should learn too much for my peace of mind. And
so he passed out of my thoughts, and indeed I even forgot that so
large a portion of his belongings was under my roof. Truly I had
quite sufficient of my own pressing personal affairs to occupy all my
attention to the exclusion of any one else's troubles for the time,
and that probably made me more callous than I should have been. I
know that when some chance acquaintance would come in, and after a
very lengthy preamble, try to borrow a few shillings, I used to wax
eloquent. Yet I suppose I ought to have been quite grateful for the
opportunity of giving utterance to my sorrows without being suspected
of ulterior motives. But I regret to say that I got a very bad idea of
my fellow-men generally about this time. So many of them known to me
looked so jolly, existed so easily, dressed well, smoked good cigars,
and yet when they got me by myself invariably sang a song of misery, of
a hollow mask concealing a broken heart, which the temporary loan of a
pound or two would mend. And when the pound or two was not forthcoming
a shilling or even sixpence would be so welcome. One quality they
certainly had, that of perseverance. Yes, after the most vehement
exposition of the impossibility of ever borrowing anything from me,
of all people in the world, they would reappear shortly on the same
errand, until I shrewdly suspected, and told them as much, that they
were only doing it for practice.
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