I had left in the shop the broken lamps, a few of the fittings and the
two counters. I claim no credit for leaving those counters; they had
cost me £10, but I could not have sold them on the spur of the moment
for ten shillings, although they were legally mine, if the term can be
used of transactions which all seemed to me extra-legal if not actually
illegal. To tell the truth I detached the shop entirely from my mind;
it was an incubus removed as was Christian's burden in the "Pilgrim's
Progress," and, although never in the habit of making resolutions or
swearing off, I felt that nothing could, would, or should ever induce
me to take upon my shoulders such a burden again.
I went back to my office with a fairly light heart, except for the
lingering doubts which always assailed me when I had been away a
long time, and found everything proceeding calmly in its accustomed
channels. I did learn afterwards that one kind gentleman, suffering
from insufficiency of occupation, had brought my bankruptcy before the
Secretary, and had been snubbed for his pains. The same philanthropist
I afterwards learned had been to the manager of a firm to which I was
indebted and suggested that they should get an order to garnishee my £2
a week, but was again repulsed in his benevolent ideas. I may say in
passing that his salary was double mine, that he was a bachelor, and
I was seven, like the Wordsworth child, and after that I think I can
leave the matter.
How long it was after this sudden passing from storm to calm, before I
was called upon to meet my creditors I do not know, but I do know that
I woke every morning feeling that life had begun anew. The postman's
knock (truly it was rare now) no longer gave me palpitation of the
heart, nor did I fear that upon coming home, I should meet one of my
uninvited guests with designs upon my "bits of sticks." Demands for
money, peremptory, denunciatory, ceased automatically. I moved in a new
world, where debts were not, and £2 a week was a neat little annuity
amply sufficient for all present needs; and I began to feel again
as if life was worth living. Of course I had carried my tools with
me and had set up a bench where I might do an occasional job if the
opportunity offered; and as many of my old customers sought me out, I
still earned a little extra, which I found very useful.
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