"Because Poole, whatever the merits of the case--doesn't seem to me
strong enough to shape his destiny and yours. Was it strong for him to
let go as he did, just because that woman failed him? Was it strong
for him to hide himself here--like--like a criminal? A strong man
would have faced the world. He would have tried to rise out of his
wreck. His actions all through spell weakness. I could bear your not
marrying me, Mary. But I can't bear to see you marry a man who isn't
worthy of you. To see you unhappy would be torture for me."
In his earnestness he had struck a genuine note, and she recognized it.
"I know," she said, unsteadily. "I believe that you think you are
fighting my battle, instead of your own. But I don't think Roger Poole
would--lie."
"Not consciously. But he'd create the wrong impression--we can never
see our own faults--and he would blame her, of course. But the man who
has made one woman unhappy would make another unhappy, Mary."
Mary was shaken.
"Please don't put it so--inevitably. Roger hasn't any claim on me
whatever."
"Hasn't he? Oh, Mary, hasn't he?"
There was hope in his voice, and she shrank from it.
"No," she said, gently, "he is just--my friend. As yet I can't believe
evil of him. But I don't love him. I don't love anybody--I don't want
any man in my life."
She thought that she meant it. She thought it, even while her heart
was crying out in defense of the man he had maligned.
"How can one know the truth of such a thing?" she went on, unsteadily.
"One can only believe in one's friends."
"Mary," eagerly, "you've known Poole only for a few months. You've
known me always. I can give you a devotion equal to anybody's. Why
not drop all this contrariness--and come to me?"
"Why not?" she asked herself. Roger Poole was obscure, and destined to
be obscure. More than that, there would always be people like Porter
who would question his past. "It is the whispers that kill," Roger had
said. And people would always whisper.
She rose and walked to the end of the porch. Porter followed her, and
they stood looking down into the garden. It was in a riot of summer
bloom--and the fragrance rushed up to them.
The garden! And herself a flower! It was such things that Roger Poole
could say, and which Porter could never say. And he could not say them
because he could not think them. The things that Porter thought were
commonplace, the things which Roger thought were wonderful. If she
married Porter Bigelow, she would walk always with her feet firmly on
the ground. If she married Roger Poole they would fly in the upper air
together.
"Mary," Porter was insisting, "dear girl."
She held up her hand. "I won't listen," she said, almost passionately;
"don't imagine things about me, Porter. I have my work--and my
freedom--I won't give them up for anybody."
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