England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction
It had become so dark without that the night had seemed far advanced,
but within lights were shining. The door of the room stood open,
admitting a cheerful glimmer; the sound of voices was audible. Mary came
quickly in, shutting the window behind her, her excitement risen to
fever point. She found herself confronting the ghostly figure, which
stood bewildered in the middle of the room. Even now, even here, sure as
she was that it was a man, and a helpless one, who stood before her, the
horrible alternative, the wild suggestion, that at her touch that shadow
might dissolve and melt away, and leave her mad with the awful
encounter, flashed through Mary’s confused brain. To stand by him in the
dark room was somehow more appalling than to follow through the free
air and space. But it was only in that flash that she remembered herself
at all. The poor wanderer had known his way when he was making that
devious course round the house: he had come soberly with an evident
intention through the clumps and _bosquets_ to this window--he had meant
all along to get here, to enter by it, to pursue his wild search for his
child. But the open door on the other side, the lights gleaming, the
sounds of the household, all active and awake, bewildered him. He
stopped short; perhaps he had already seen that there was no one in the
bed. He stood wavering, tremulous, diverted from his intention, looking
wildly round him. When he caught sight of Mary he shrank back, as if to
escape. Trembling as she was, her lips almost refusing to utter the
words that came to them, her limbs to support her, she tottered up to
him, and caught him by the arm.
“Yes,” he said, retreating a little before her. “Don’t be angry--I
wanted to thee my little girl.”
“Oh, John!” cried Mary. “Cousin John!--oh, dear John, you that were
always so good, why won’t they let you live as you ought in your own
house?”
He stepped still further back, with a gesture of dismay. “Who is that?”
he said. “You’re not Mrs. Mills. I don’t know who you are.”
“Oh yes, John, you know me, if you will only think; I’m Mary. You
remember Mary, your little cousin, to whom you were always so good?”
“Mary?” he said. “I know your voice, and I know your name: but they will
not like it. They thay I’m not fit--Mary--I wonder if I would know you
if I thaw you. But don’t tell them I’m here; I daren’t go into the
light.”
“Cousin John,” said Mary, “tell me who you think I am.”
He drew back a little farther; it seemed to bewilder him to be so near
her. “I think,” he said, “you must be little Mary that used to be at
home in the old time, Mary that wath married to the curate. I wath very
found of Mary. But don’t tell them I’m here. I’ll go back--I’ll go
back--to my own little place.”
“This is your place, John. Oh, dear John, who has done this to you? You
shall not go back; you shall stay in your own house, John.”
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