American fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, American
“Then I came home. I landed in the morning and came straight down here. The
thought of seeing her portrait possessed me and my heart beat like a
lover’s as I opened the library door. It was in the afternoon and the room
was full of light. It fell on her picture--the picture of a young and
radiant woman. She smiled at me coldly across the distance that divided us.
I had the feeling that she didn’t even recognize me. And then I caught
sight of myself in the mirror over there--a gray-haired broken man whom she
had never known!
“For a week we two lived together--the strange woman and the strange man.
I used to sit night after night and question her smiling face; but no
answer ever came. What did she know of me, after all? We were irrevocably
separated by the five years of life that lay between us. At times, as I
sat here, I almost grew to hate her; for her presence had driven away my
gentle ghost, the real wife who had wept, aged, struggled with me during
those awful years.... It was the worst loneliness I’ve ever known. Then,
gradually, I began to notice a look of sadness in the picture’s eyes; a
look that seemed to say: ‘Don’t you see that _I_ am lonely too?’ And
all at once it came over me how she would have hated to be left behind! I
remembered her comparing life to a heavy book that could not be read with
ease unless two people held it together; and I thought how impatiently her
hand would have turned the pages that divided us!--So the idea came to me:
‘It’s the picture that stands between us; the picture that is dead, and not
my wife. To sit in this room is to keep watch beside a corpse.’ As this
feeling grew on me the portrait became like a beautiful mausoleum in which
she had been buried alive: I could hear her beating against the painted
walls and crying to me faintly for help....
“One day I found I couldn’t stand it any longer and I sent for Claydon. He
came down and I told him what I’d been through and what I wanted him to do.
At first he refused point-blank to touch the picture. The next morning I
went off for a long tramp, and when I came home I found him sitting here
alone. He looked at me sharply for a moment and then he said: ‘I’ve changed
my mind; I’ll do it.’ I arranged one of the north rooms as a studio and he
shut himself up there for a day; then he sent for me. The picture stood
there as you see it now--it was as though she’d met me on the threshold and
taken me in her arms! I tried to thank him, to tell him what it meant to
me, but he cut me short.
“‘There’s an up train at five, isn’t there?’ he asked. ‘I’m booked for a
dinner to-night. I shall just have time to make a bolt for the station and
you can send my traps after me.’ I haven’t seen him since.
“I can guess what it cost him to lay hands on his masterpiece; but, after
all, to him it was only a picture lost, to me it was my wife regained!”
IV
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