Crying for the Light; Or, Fifty Years Ago. Vol. 1 [of 3]Ritchie, J. Ewing (James Ewing)
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Crying for the Light; Or, Fifty Years Ago. Vol. 1 [of 3]
Ritchie, J. Ewing (James Ewing)
England -- Social conditions -- 19th century -- Fiction
Had our hero been equal to the situation, had he had a proper amount of
backbone, had he not been trained to lead an emotional life, had he
attained to the true dignity of manhood, he either would have never
thought of love of one in every way so much superior, or he would have
returned to England at once to fight the battle of life for himself and
to fit him for her. Alas! he was weak and intoxicated with love, hardly
master of himself. He fell into bad society with men richer than
himself, where he learned to drink and live recklessly. Away from her,
loving her with the intensest and wildest passion, he was utterly
miserable. He returned to London, and got a little work to do in the way
of reviewing.
In London he was worse off than in Hamburg. His mode of life lent itself
easily to the wildest excesses. Had he brought back the lady with him as
his wife it would have been otherwise. His was a nature that could not
stand alone.
Some of his wealthy friends had married, and at their evening soirées he
met men and women—authors, artists, statesmen, men of progress, men and
women whose names the world yet gratefully remembers; and then away he
would rush off to the lodgings of other friends—dissipated medical
students as they were in those far-off days, types of the Bob Sawyer
class, and with gin-and-water would pass the night, unless, as was too
frequently the case, they plunged into the debaucheries of London by
night, when respectability had gone to bed.
Lower and lower did Wentworth fall, and then came the end. The lady
discovered how romantic had been her dream, and the dismissed lover
staggered under the blow. It is hard to realise what a moral wreck that
pitiable wretch had become—how with no real excuse for his drink and
dissipation, now almost a necessity of his life, all hope had vanished
from his horizon, all faith in God or man.
For a time he led, as many do, a dual life—decent by day, the reverse by
night. London is full of such men now. Fathers and mothers living far
away in the quiet country home have no idea what London is by night, or
was, for I write of a wild scene of dissipation which no longer exists.
A young man in business is sheltered more or less from the lowest abysses
of London life. A young man in a decent home is also guarded to a
certain extent. It is the stranger within the gates who, as a rule,
falls the more easily to the allurements of vice. He is alone; he needs
society. It is not good for man to be alone. If a man cannot have good
society, the chances are he will have bad.
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