Adultery -- Fiction; Cuba -- Fiction; Runaway husbands -- Fiction
Lee Randon had completely and sharply focussed the most adverse possible
attitude toward that: he saw it without a redeeming feature and bare
of any chance of pleasure. His need for honesty, however special, was
outraged on every facet by the thought of an intrigue. Lee reconstructed
it in every detail--he saw the moments, doubtful and hurried and
surreptitious, snatched in William Grove's house; the servants,
with their penetration of the tone of an establishment, knowing and
insufferable; he lived over the increasing dissatisfaction with quick
embraces in the automobile, and the final indignities of lying names and
rooms of pandering and filthy debasement. The almost inevitable exposure
followed, the furies and hysterical reproaches. That, indeed, would
have involved them fatally: in such circumstances the world would be
invincible, crushing; holding solidly its front against such dangerous
assault, it would have poured over Savina and him a conviction of sin in
which they would unavoidably have perished.
As it was, he had told her--with, in himself, the feeling of a
considerable discovery--that they were to a marked degree superior:
he could find no more remorse at his heart than Savina showed. This,
exactly, was his inner conviction--that, since he had given something
not in Fanny's possession, he had robbed her of nothing. It was a new
idea to him and it required careful thought, a slow justification. It
answered, perhaps, once and for all, his question about the essential
oneness of marriage. Yes, that was a misconception; marriage in an ideal
state he wasn't considering, but only his own individual position. To
love but one woman through this life and into a next would be blissful
... if it were possible; there might be a great deal saved--but by
someone else--in heroically supporting such an Elysian tenet; Lee Randon
definitely hadn't the necessary utopianism.
Love wasn't a sacred fluid held in a single vessel of alabaster;
marriage didn't conveniently create shortsightedness. Lee couldn't
pretend to answer all this for women, or even in part for Savina.
Her attitude, he knew, in that it never touched the abstract, was far
simpler than his; she didn't regard herself as scarlet, but thought of
the rest of the world as unendurably drab. The last thing she had said
to him was that she was glad, glad, that it had happened. This, too, in
Savina, had preserved them from the slightest suggestion of inferiority:
the night assumed no resemblance to a disgraceful footnote on the page
of righteousness. It was complete--and, by God, admirable!--within
itself. No one, practically, would agree with him, and here, in the fact
that no one ever could know, his better wisdom was shown.
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