England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction
He stooped and raised me without a word. A chair was near him: he sat
down, he took me in his arms; he pressed me to his heart, and never had
his embrace been more warm and tender; he looked down at me, and never
had his look been more endearing; he spoke--not in words of condemnation
or menace, but with all the ardour of his feelings and the fervour of his
heart. I wept for joy; I thought myself acquitted, alas! he soon
undeceived me, I was only forgiven.
"Yes," he said, "I break my resolve, and here you are again, still loved
and still caressed; for though _you_ have not reminded me of it, Daisy,
_I_ remember I once declared there was nothing I would not forgive you,
for the sake of the faith you one day here expressed in me. And I do
forgive you; as I am a Christian, as I am a gentleman, on my honour, on
my truth, I forgive you. Confess or do not confess, it matters not. I
appeal not to fear of punishment, to gratitude for the past, to dread of
the future, to conscience, or to love; I forgive you, and leave you free
for silence or for speech."
I understood him but too well. Cornelius would no longer extort a
confession; his own soul was great and magnanimous; he understood high
feelings, and by this unconditional forgiveness he now appealed to me
through the highest and most noble feeling of a human heart--generosity.
Hitherto, he had only thought me perverse and obstinate; with a silent
pang of despair I felt I was now condemned to appear mean and low before
him. For he looked at me with such generous confidence; with such trust
and faith in his aspect; with something in his eyes that seemed to say
with the triumph of a noble heart, "You have wronged me, you have
deceived me, but I defy you to resist this!" He waited, it was plain, for
a confession that came not. At length he understood that it would not
come. He put me away without the least trace of anger, and said, in a
voice of which the reproachful gentleness pierced my heart--
"You cannot prevent me from forgiving you, Daisy."
With this he turned from me, and removing Medora from the easel, he began
looking out for another canvas of the same size. Miriam had looked on,
seated on the couch with motionless composure, her calm, statue-like head
supported by her hand. She turned round to say--
"What is that for, Cornelius?"
"To begin again, if you do not object. I have already thought of some
changes in the attitude."
She looked at him keenly, and not without wonder.
"You soon get over it," she said.
"Why not?" he asked quietly; "do not look astonished, Miriam; I can no
more linger over regret than over anger. For me to feel that a thing is
utterly lost, is to cease to lament for it. The work of days and months
is utterly ruined; be it so, I have but to begin anew."
Miriam rose and went up to him as he stood before his easel, somewhat
pale, but as collected as if nothing had happened.
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