England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction
He looked down at me with an anxious and tormenting doubt that vanished
before a sudden and irresistible conviction. Yes, I read it in his face:
he who had so pertinaciously accused, judged, and condemned me, was now,
as with a two-edged sword, pierced with the double conviction of my
innocence and his own injustice. For a moment he looked stunned, then he
withdrew from my clasp, rose, and walked away without a word, and sat
down by the table with his back turned to me.
The heart has instincts beyond all the written knowledge of the wise. I
rose and ran to him; he averted his face and put me away.
"Cornelius," I entreated, "Cornelius, look at me."
Without answering, he turned his face to me. Never shall I forget its
mingled remorse and grief. He rose and paced the room up and down, with
agitated steps. I did not dare to follow or address him; of his own
accord he stopped short and, confronting me, took my two hands in his and
looked down at me with a sorrowful face.
"If I had but wronged a man," he said, "one who could give me back insult
for insult and wrong for wrong, I should regret it, but I could forgive
myself; but you!" he added, looking at me from head to foot, "a girl, a
mere child, dependent on me too, helpless and without one to protect or
defend you against wrong--oh, Daisy! it is more than I can bear to think
of!"
It did seem too galling for thought, for tears wrung forth by wounded
pride rose to his eyes and ran down his burning cheek.
"Can you forgive me?" he added, after a short pause.
This was more than I could bear. Forgive him! forgive him to whom I owed
everything the error of one day! I could not, and I passionately said I
never would.
But Cornelius was peremptory, and, though burning with shame at so
strange a reversion of our mutual positions, I yielded. I felt however as
if I could never again look him in the face. But Cornelius had a faculty
granted to few: he could feel deeply, ardently, without sentimental
exaggeration. His mind was manly in its very tenderness. He had expressed
his grief, his remorse, his shame; he did not brood over them or distress
me with puerile because unavailing regrets over a past he could not
recall. As he made me return to my seat and again sat by me, there was
indeed in his look, in the way in which he drew me nearer to him, in the
tone with which he said once or twice, "My poor child! my poor little
Daisy!" something which told me beyond the power of language, how keenly
he felt his injustice, how deeply he lamented my day of sorrow; but
otherwise, his conscience acquitting him of intentional wrong, he
accepted my forgiveness as frankly as he had asked for it.
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