“You will oblige me by not referring to Jack’s infirmity again. He was
the only creature I’ve had to love since my mother, and I loved him as
he was. You and I, Catherine, should be the last to depreciate him for
what he symbolized.”
“Symbolized? Oh, don’t tell me that again!”
“Your criticism forces me to remind you. Outwardly our son was the
symbol of our malformed union.”
“_John_, what a grim thought!”
“Grim as the inheritance law--even to the third and fourth generation.
He paid the price in his person of our crime in giving him birth.
Through our fault, not his own, his body was warped and his temper
uncertain. I often remembered when I looked at him--remembered that no
amount of love was enough to atone for the wrong we had done him. I,
for one, am grateful that we three were spared the greater punishment.
So easily, in the sardonic scheme of things, the soul of him, too,
might have been warped. But his was as gallant and large and sweet as
ever outgrew injustice.”
The implications against herself had turned Catherine to one of the
many mirrors conveniently placed.
“How can you take such stern pride in your loyalty? You used to say,
you know, that you loved me.”
He, also, studied her reflection.
“I suppose you would call that a self-respecting statement? All
right, we’ll give it the benefit of my doubt that it is mere vanity.
I did love what I thought you were. But that was taken away, like my
mother--like Jack.”
She showed the flurry that caught her up whenever inspired by one of
her “brainy” thoughts.
“Has a man a right to think things about a woman which aren’t true,
marry her on the strength of them and then blame her for the rest of
their unnatural lives because he made a mistake?”
“In our case I had--every right. Have you forgotten the details of
our first meeting, Catherine? Your father had invited me to the house
really to see you, not the pictures he hoped to sell me. Your mother
had selected me, sight unseen, by virtue of my bank account. They
helped you to make an impression on me which all of you knew to be
false. You were dressed in white, which you afterward told me you never
expected to wear again until your funeral. You looked innocent and
tender and dependent--all of which you were not. You sat upon a hassock
and played with a white Persian kitten--oh, every detail of the studied
effect made a lasting impression upon me! You had well-developed claws
then, but you held them in far more carefully than did the kitten.
Later, I learned, with quite a shock, that you detested cats. Yet you
held this one to your cheek and understudied its appeal to the best of
your feline ability.”
“Thanks for admitting that I have some sort of ability,” the gentle
voice purred.
“You have more than ability. You have positive power.”
“My dear John! But don’t pay me all your stored-up compliments in one
visit. Save some and call again.”
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