So far Fate had conspired against her with a nice regard for every
detail. She became possessed by the pertinent query: Why should _she_
expect the mind of Fate to change?
Any question over the advisability of telephoning Rufus Holt was
answered by her inability to go out in search of a booth. Just
before one fevered dawn the idea of advertisement came and crowded
out the sickening controversy over whether John or the matron was
to blame. Why hadn’t that occurred to her before? In a return of
expectation, she composed a “personal” that seemed to her adequately
“covered”--recognizable only to him addressed. There was piquancy in
the thought that the Press which had been her enemy should now serve
her as a friend. Fortunate that she knew which of the morning papers he
was accustomed to read with care--doubly fortunate that there still was
enough left of her hoard to pay for a single notice.
The poor-spirited landlady looked especially pessimistic over the
errand on which she was asked to go, any chance of a reward depending
upon its success. Her new tenant was likely to be a great deal of
trouble, she anticipated aloud, and she never before had been reduced
to taking dogs. Had not the room been so long vacant, she would not
have considered the pair of them. She suspected, moreover, from the
things they were doing without, that they had about reached the limit
of their wherewithal. However, none could say but what she always
looked on the bright side of things and she’d do her best about getting
all the display the money would buy for the personal.
Dolores’ confidence increased after the old woman had gone. Such doubts
as crowded in, she exorcised with the reminder that her advertisement
would have succeeded or failed in one day’s time. Often in the past she
had deplored the fact that the marvelous output of the press should die
in a day; now she rejoiced in the fact. By to-morrow he would have come
or--But she would not--dared not face the alternative.
That night her baby was born.
The old woman did what she had time for and the charity doctor
stayed a while. Afterward, Dolores must have sunk into a state of
semi-consciousness--must have slept or dozed away the time, for she
roused to incredulity on being told that it was noon of the next day.
Two other facts penetrated her listlessness. The life of that day’s
_Times_ must soon be spent and her child was a girl.
Suppose he did not come. That meant that another girl-child was
fatherless. Already, in the world’s opinion, she would be accounted
worse than motherless.
As before, time became merely a variation of hope and despondency....
What was that? Surely, an Airedale bred to watchfulness would not grow
so excited had he not recognized a step or voice!... But no, he was
a silly dog, silly and extremely bored. He and she, too, must have
imagined the step and the voice.
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