Desire for an heir-apparent to his throne of late had grown in
him. Could she not imagine the outcome of his ambition--a youthful
demon born to dominance, bred to brutality, schooled to undreamt
possibilities of fiendishness? Strong as steel in mental culpability,
he should have the “chance” denied his self-made sire. Never should he
know, hence should not fear defeat. With a super-divine intolerance,
he would accept and hold his sovereignty. Although of the spirit, he
should inherit a talent for strong visibility, taking his form from
his father and from his mother a subtlety of appeal such as god nor
man yet had possessed. A beauty of countenance irresistible should be
his--features of marble pale as the ghosts of Dolores’ victims--lips
that quivered from the very delicacy of the lies they lied, eyes that
veiled in mists of mercy the utmost truculence.
Could she not see the child of his imagination? Let her open wide those
crime-dark eyes of hers; to-night let his moth-like fancies bask in
their purple flame.
When he, leaning against her, lifted himself to try his thought, the
bride-soul clutched her forehead and shuddered back among the pillows
as if to shield brain, as well as eyes. Yet even to her own ears her
protest sounded both sincere and false.
“You must be mad--_mad_--to dream of such a thing.”
Was not the inspiration of all dreams mere madness? he asked her. And
was not that love which he aspired to feel the first symptom of mental
derangement? As for love’s climax--as for passion----
Always had he envied mortal men their carnal appetites. There was
nothing to being the King of Evil if he couldn’t have all the vices.
For æons had he hankered to glut himself with food, and drink distorted
images into his mind. Now he hankered---- Oh, by no means to weaken
himself with this love over which she oh’d and ah’d! Really, though,
didn’t it seem too bad that he who had invented loveless lust and
incited it daily in a million earthlings, should enjoy it only
vicariously? Even before she had come to Shadow Land, he confessed, he
had felt the need of a second-worst emotion. That night of the tale of
her surrender to John Cabot he’d decided on its nature. To think of
the thousands of years he’d wasted! To have been the two ultimates,
archangel and arch-fiend, without having been intermediate man!
As the lasciviousness of his look intensified, Dolores realized in
herself a certain sympathy. Appalled by its drawing power, she reminded
herself that only chaste aspirations might conquer the crave for evil
to which all mankind is heir. Her lips formed to the names of her
quondam guardian companions.
“Innocentia, I do not wish to know these dreadful things. Save me from
the knowledge, dear, _dear_ Amor.”
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