United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Women college students -- Fiction
“Joy, he said nothing for two or three minutes steady, till the waiter
came and he told him to bring anything, but get out. Then he
said—‘I—see now! The valiance and potential beauty I saw in the spirit
of the little girl who brought me back to myself—the shining hardness
of the cabaret singer, whom I pitied as drawn in and around by her past
and inevitable future environment—I discarded that hardness, and all
that went with it, and built on the valiance and beauty. And you were
discarding and building in reality—as I, with all the idiotic finality
of a man, never thought you could!’
“Joy—I didn’t think I’d built. Before—he thought I was worse than I
was. Last night, seeing me ooze around his sister’s drawing room, he
thought I was better than I am. I began to tell him this, and he stopped
me.
“When I first knew you—I knew you were better than I,’ he said. ‘As I
see you now, you have all but put yourself beyond me. I have led a life
of which I am ashamed; the dusty corners of which no one shall ever
know, or try to sweep out. You have led a life of which you can say you
are not ashamed; a life of striving against odds, from which you came
out on top; a life of which to be proud.
“Joy—I was ashamed at that. For since the war—you know how I’ve
been—Building, he thought! When I’d just been growing into the ways of
his world. Excitement-Eating! That was the main thing I’d been growing
on. I began to tell him—and he wouldn’t let me. ‘What has happened is
not mine now. It is for what is to be that I plead. With your future
mine, and mine yours, you can help me to forget the years we might not
have esteemed so lightly.’”
Jerry had finished, at the same time that she had snapped the last catch
together in her green evening gown—the same green sequin affair that
she had worn that terrible night they had looked for Sarah. . . .
“Well—and then what happened the rest of the afternoon?” Joy drew out
from lungs that had been deserted of breath.
“I’ve told you more than I shall ever tell anybody. The rest is
mine—that and—_this_!”
Jerry flaunted her left hand before her. On the third finger was a tiny
platinum circlet, so small that it had melted into the white of her hand
at a distance, as gold could not have done. “I’ve tried to thrust it
down your throat a thousand ways, but you would keep looking at my face
and a thousand other unimportant things!”
Joy sank back upon the bed, her whole being a rag of dumfounderment.
“Jerry!”
“Mrs. Philip Lancaster—and hurry up and put on some rouge! I don’t want
to keep my husband waiting!”
“But—but why—how—where——”
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