United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Women college students -- Fiction
She had always known this. She had been building of herself a temple to
love, when blaspheming hands had shaken the temple, leaving love a thing
to be feared. She had shuddered away from love and turned to music. That
could not turn and rend her. . . . Then love had come, again, so bright
and pure a thing that she could not be afraid. But the bright blaze had
burned itself out, and then when nothing was left . . . there was music.
And the soul of music had united with her own soul as had been
predicted—weaving itself ever more closely into her being. Then love
had come again—and this time it had not burst upon her in the flame of
romance, the golden glory of dreams; instead, it had quietly encompassed
her until she knew—that it spelled all of life to her. Keeping pace
with music, it had woven itself ever more closely into her being. The
discovery had made her dismiss it—as if a thing that had had become a
part of her, could be dismissed. _But music was a part of her, too!_
Félicie had given up “the only things that matter,” and met her terrible
lesson. She, Joy, must cease wavering in the world of phantoms, of those
who put love aside, those to whom it does not come, and those who are
incapable of love.
It was towards evening that she telephoned Jim. A dreadful fear assailed
her while she was waiting for him to come to the wire. Supposing he were
sick! Supposing he wouldn’t be there—She had always regarded him as an
institution that never failed. She had heard of girls regarding men in
that way before—and how they had been surprised when they turned to the
institution, after a long time. In her overtired, overwrought condition,
his familiar voice brought a relief so great as to be almost hysterical.
She babbled out the story of Félicie’s calamity, and implored him to
come out. She implored him with unnecessary fervour. . . . When she had
rung off, she realized that she was overdoing things, and calmed down to
the extent of telephoning the hospital and getting Greg on the wire. He
informed her that as yet he had not been able to see Félicie.
“I brought bales of roses that they’ve surrounded her with in her bed,”
he said; “and she always likes things like that.”
“I’ll be up later;” and Joy relayed the latest bulletin to Madame
Durant, who had several times during the day arrayed herself in her
bonnet and cloak preparatory to another journey to the hospital, being
stopped each time by Joy’s assurances concerning the futility of another
visit that day.
“Why don’t you practice?” asked the old lady, now noting her
restlessness. “You haven’t practiced at all to-day—and I don’t know
what Félicie’d do, if she could see all that music spilled on the
parlour floor.”
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