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“Practice! An hour and a half a day. That is the most you can do with
your voice. But there must be hours of silent study. No matter what one
may say of Geraldine Farrar now, she was, is and will remain a very
great artist. It does not drop on one like the gentle rain from Heaven,
after a few years of hour-and-a-half practice. That girl worked ten
hours a day in her years of study. Lilli Lehmann said she never had such
a worker. You have the voice—yes. Now you require solfège, through
harmony and counterpoint, French, Italian and German complete, other
languages to pronounce—you are but at the threshold of your toil. Oh,
when I see you before me, with practically everything to learn, the days
don’t seem long enough—the years don’t seem long enough!” He quieted
down and looked at her. A great deal had descended upon her at once, but
she felt no sense of oppression at the program outlined; rather, she
felt as if energy were pouring in upon her, energy to accomplish
anything he said. She rose, inhaling a long breath as she did to sing
on, feeling her ribs swell out, with the sense of power that it never
failed to give her.
“It’s true, Pa—I did come in here half with the idea of leaving you. I
didn’t know what I would do. But you have decided me. There’s no need of
my thinking over what you said. I’ve decided now. You never told me all
this before, about how I would have to work, because I wasn’t ready for
it—isn’t that so? I am now—and thank you.”
His eyes glinted beneath his brows. “I’ll not let you decide here. Go
away as I told you, and then come back. At Jerry’s, your atmosphere will
not be so—musical, and you can make an unbiased decision.”
“No—I want to decide now—before I go back to Jerry’s——”
“You speak as if Jerry might influence you the other way. Jerry loves to
mind her business with strict impartiality, but if she ever overstepped
her limits she would only urge you to strive as she might have. That
girl has the makings of a diseuse of the first water.”
She left the studio in the gilded bubble of youth’s ambition. All the
voices and urges within her seemed this morning to have crystallized
themselves into one refrain: “_No work is too hard if it reaches towards
perfection!_” How could she have thought she could leave Pa?
She had forgotten—Jerry, Jerry, the mystery—about whom Pa seemed to
know more than she, Joy, who lived with her.
What could she do? What was she to think? Where could she turn, in this
perplexity?
Jerry was sitting in her room—a pale, seedy-looking Jerry in the
familiar purple kimono, staring dully at the half-packed trunk. She did
not turn as Joy came in.
“So you’ve—decided to go,” she said in a funny, hard little voice that
wavered at the end.
All the resentment and doubt that had been torturing Joy, was dispelled
by the sight of that desolate figure and those few wry little words.
“Jerry!” she cried. “I—I thought about it this morning—but I—I
couldn’t!”
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