Didactic fiction; England -- Fiction; Jewish fiction; Jews -- England -- Fiction; Zionists -- Fiction
“Oh, yes, it was the earliest. I think my life began with waking up and
loving my mother’s face: it was so near to me, and her arms were round
me, and she sang to me. One hymn she sang so often, so often: and then
she taught me to sing it with her: it was the first I ever sang. They
were always Hebrew hymns she sang; and because I never knew the meaning
of the words they seemed full of nothing but our love and happiness.
When I lay in my little bed and it was all white above me, she used to
bend over me, between me and the white, and sing in a sweet, low voice.
I can dream myself back into that time when I am awake, and it often
comes back to me in my sleep—my hand is very little, I put it up to
her face and she kisses it. Sometimes in my dreams I begin to tremble
and think that we are both dead; but then I wake up and my hand lies
like this, and for a moment I hardly know myself. But if I could see my
mother again I should know her.”
“You must expect some change after twelve years,” said Mrs. Meyrick,
gently. “See my grey hair: ten years ago it was bright brown. The days
and months pace over us like restless little birds, and leave the marks
of their feet backward and forward; especially when they are like birds
with heavy hearts—then they tread heavily.”
“Ah, I am sure her heart has been heavy for want of me. But to feel her
joy if we could meet again, and I could make her know I love her and
give her deep comfort after all her mourning! If that could be, I
should mind nothing; I should be glad that I have lived through my
trouble. I did despair. The world seemed miserable and wicked; none
helped me so that I could bear their looks and words; I felt that my
mother was dead, and death was the only way to her. But then in the
last moment—yesterday, when I longed for the water to close over
me—and I thought that death was the best image of mercy—then goodness
came to me living, and I felt trust in the living. And—it is
strange—but I began to hope that she was living too. And now I with
you—here—this morning, peace and hope have come into me like a flood.
I want nothing; I can wait; because I hope and believe and am
grateful—oh, so grateful! You have not thought evil of me—you have
not despised me.”
Mirah spoke with low-toned fervor, and sat as still as a picture all
the while.
“Many others would have felt as we do, my dear,” said Mrs. Meyrick,
feeling a mist come over her eyes as she looked at her work.
“But I did not meet them—they did not come to me.”
“How was it that you were taken from your mother?”
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