Didactic fiction; England -- Fiction; Jewish fiction; Jews -- England -- Fiction; Zionists -- Fiction
She rose from the low ottoman where she had been sitting purposeless,
and walked up and down the drawing-room, resting her elbow on one palm
while she leaned down her cheek on the other, and a slow tear fell. She
thought, “I have always, ever since I was little, felt that mamma was
not a happy woman; and now I dare say I shall be more unhappy than she
has been.”
Her mind dwelt for a few moments on the picture of herself losing her
youth and ceasing to enjoy—not minding whether she did this or that:
but such picturing inevitably brought back the image of her mother.
“Poor mamma! it will be still worse for her now. I can get a little
money for her—that is all I shall care about now.” And then with an
entirely new movement of her imagination, she saw her mother getting
quite old and white, and herself no longer young but faded, and their
two faces meeting still with memory and love, and she knowing what was
in her mother’s mind—“Poor Gwen too is sad and faded now”—and then,
for the first time, she sobbed, not in anger, but with a sort of tender
misery.
Her face was toward the door, and she saw her mother enter. She barely
saw that; for her eyes were large with tears, and she pressed her
handkerchief against them hurriedly. Before she took it away she felt
her mother’s arms round her, and this sensation, which seemed a
prolongation of her inward vision, overcame her will to be reticent;
she sobbed anew in spite of herself, as they pressed their cheeks
together.
Mrs. Davilow had brought something in her hand which had already caused
her an agitating anxiety, and she dared not speak until her darling had
become calmer. But Gwendolen, with whom weeping had always been a
painful manifestation to be resisted, if possible, again pressed her
handkerchief against her eyes, and, with a deep breath, drew her head
backward and looked at her mother, who was pale and tremulous.
“It was nothing, mamma,” said Gwendolen, thinking that her mother had
been moved in this way simply by finding her in distress. “It is all
over now.”
But Mrs. Davilow had withdrawn her arms, and Gwendolen perceived a
letter in her hand.
“What is that letter?—worse news still?” she asked, with a touch of
bitterness.
“I don’t know what you will think it, dear,” said Mrs. Davilow, keeping
the letter in her hand. “You will hardly guess where it comes from.”
“Don’t ask me to guess anything,” said Gwendolen, rather impatiently,
as if a bruise were being pressed.
“It is addressed to you, dear.”
Gwendolen gave the slightest perceptible toss of the head.
“It comes from Diplow,” said Mrs. Davilow, giving her the letter.
She knew Grandcourt’s indistinct handwriting, and her mother was not
surprised to see her blush deeply; but watching her as she read, and
wondering much what was the purport of the letter, she saw the color
die out. Gwendolen’s lips even were pale as she turned the open note
toward her mother. The words were few and formal:
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