There might have been some hope for Harry in Hugh’s separation from
Euphra; but the result was, that, although he spent school-hours more
regularly with him, Hugh was yet more dull, and uninterested in the work,
than he had been before. Instead of caring that his pupil should
understand this or that particular, he would be speculating on Euphra’s
behaviour, trying to account for this or that individual look or tone, or
seeking, perhaps, a special symbolic meaning in some general remark that
she had happened to let fall. Meanwhile, poor Harry would be stupifying
himself with work which he could not understand for lack of some
explanation or other that ought to have been given him weeks ago. Still,
however, he clung to Hugh with a far-off, worshipping love, never
suspecting that he could be to blame, but thinking at one time that he
must be ill, at another that he himself was really too stupid, and that
his big brother could not help getting tired of him. When Hugh would be
wandering about the place, seeking to catch a glimpse of the skirt of
Euphra’s dress, as she went about with her guests, or devising how he
could procure an interview with her alone, Harry would be following him at
a distance, like a little terrier that had lost its master, and did not
know whether this man would be friendly or not; never spying on his
actions, but merely longing to be near him—for had not Hugh set him
going in the way of life, even if he had now left him to walk in it alone?
If Hugh could have once seen into that warm, true, pining little heart, he
would not have neglected it as he did. He had no eyes, however, but for
Euphra.
Still, it may be that even now Harry was able to gather, though with
tears, some advantage from Hugh’s neglect. He used to wander about alone;
and it may be that the hints which his tutor had already given him,
enabled him now to find for himself the interest belonging to many objects
never before remarked. Perhaps even now he began to take a few steps
alone; the waking independence of which was of more value for the future
growth of his nature, than a thousand miles accomplished by the aid of the
strong arm of his tutor. One certain advantage was, that the
constitutional trouble of the boy’s nature had now assumed a definite
form, by gathering around a definite object, and blending its own shadowy
being with the sorrow he experienced from the loss of his tutor’s
sympathy. Should that sorrow ever be cleared away, much besides might be
cleared away along with it.
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