“That man haunts me. I cannot bear the thought of him; and yet I cannot
get rid of him. I am sure he is a bad man. Are you certain he is not
here?”
“Yes, indeed, my lady. He has not been here since the day before
yesterday.”
“And yet when you leave me for an instant, I always feel as if he were
sitting in the very seat where you were the moment before, or just coming
to the door and about to open it. That is why I cannot bear you to leave
me.”
Margaret might have confessed to some slighter sensations of the same
kind; but they did not oppress her as they did Lady Emily.
“God is nearer to you than any thought or feeling of yours, Lady Emily. Do
not be afraid. If all the evil things in the universe were around us, they
could not come inside the ring that he makes about us. He always keeps a
place for himself and his child, into which no other being can enter.”
“Oh! how you must love God, Margaret!”
“Indeed I do love him, my lady. If ever anything looks beautiful or lovely
to me, then I know at once that God is that.”
“But, then, what right have we to take the good of that, however true it
is, when we are not beautiful ourselves?”
“That only makes God the more beautiful—in that he will pour out the
more of his beauty upon us to make us beautiful. If we care for his glory,
we shall be glad to believe all this about him. But we are too anxious
about feeling good ourselves, to rejoice in his perfect goodness. I think
we should find that enough, my lady. For, if he be good, are not we his
children, and sure of having it, not merely feeling it, some day?”
Here Margaret repeated a little poem of George Herbert’s. She had found
his poems amongst Mrs. Elton’s books, who, coming upon her absorbed in it
one day, had made her a present of the volume. Then indeed Margaret had
found a friend.
The poem is called Dialogue:
“Sweetest Saviour, if my soul
Were but worth the having—”
“Oh, what a comfort you are to me, Margaret!” Lady Emily said, after a
short silence. “Where did you learn such things?”
“From my father, and from Jesus Christ, and from God himself, showing them
to me in my heart.”
“Ah! that is why, as often as you come into my room, even if I am very
troubled, I feel as if the sun shone, and the wind blew, and the birds
sang, and the tree-tops went waving in the wind, as they used to do before
I was taken ill—I mean before they thought I must go abroad. You
seem to make everything clear, and right, and plain. I wish I were you,
Margaret.”
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