In order to understand this change in Euphrasia’s behaviour to Margaret—in
order, in fact, to represent it to our minds as at all credible—we
must remember that she had been trying to do right for some time; that
Margaret, as the daughter of David, seemed the only attainable source of
the knowledge she sought; that long illness had greatly weakened her
obstinacy; that her soul hungered, without knowing it, for love; and that
she was naturally gifted with a strong will, the position in which she
stood in relation to the count proving only that it was not strong enough,
and not that it was weak. Such a character must, for any good, be ruled by
itself, and not by circumstances. To have been overcome in the process of
time by the persistent goodness of Margaret, might have been the blessed
fate of a weaker and worse woman; but if Euphra did not overcome herself,
there was no hope of further victory. If Margaret could even wither the
power of her oppressor, it would be but to transfer the lordship from a
bad man to a good woman; and that would not be enough. It would not be
freedom. And indeed, the aid that Margaret had to give her, could only be
bestowed on one who already had freedom enough to act in some degree from
duty. She knew she ought to go and apologize to Margaret. She went.
In Margaret’s presence, and in such a mood, she was subjected at once to
the holy enchantment of her loving-kindness. She had never received any
tenderness from a woman before. Perhaps she had never been in the right
mood to profit by it if she had. Nor had she ever before seen what
Margaret was. It was only when service—divine service—flowed
from her in full outgoing, that she reached the height of her loveliness.
Then her whole form was beautiful. So was it interpenetrated by, and
respondent to, the uprising soul within, that it radiated thought and
feeling as if it had been all spirit. This beauty rose to its best in her
eyes. When she was ministering to any one in need, her eyes seemed to
worship the object of her faithfulness, as if all the time she felt that
she was doing it unto Him. Her deeds were devotion. She was the receiver
and not the giver. Before this, Euphra had seen only the still waiting
face; and, as I have said, she had been repelled by it. Once within the
sphere of the radiation of her attraction, she was drawn towards her, as
towards the haven of her peace: she loved her.
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