However this may have been, it is certain that he forgot his old friends
far more than he himself could have thought it possible he should; for, to
make the best of it, youth is easily attracted and filled with the present
show, and easily forgets that which, from distance in time or space, has
no show to show. Spending his evenings in the midst of merry faces, and
ready tongues fluent with the tones of jollity, if not always of wit,
which glided sometimes into no too earnest discussion of the difficult
subjects occupying their student hours; surrounded by the vapours of
whisky-toddy, and the smoke of cutty pipes, till far into the short hours;
then hurrying home, and lapsing into unrefreshing slumbers over intended
study; or sitting up all night to prepare the tasks which had been
neglected for a ball or an evening with Wilson, the great interpreter of
Scottish song—it is hardly to be wondered at that he should lose the
finer consciousness of higher powers and deeper feelings, not from any
behaviour in itself wrong, but from the hurry, noise, and tumult in the
streets of life, that, penetrating too deep into the house of life, dazed
and stupefied the silent and lonely watcher in the chamber of conscience,
far apart. He had no time to think or feel.
The session drew to a close. He eschewed all idleness; shut himself up,
after class hours, with his books; ate little, studied hard, slept
irregularly, working always best between midnight and two in the morning;
carried the first honours in most of his classes; and at length breathed
freely, but with a dizzy brain, and a face that revealed, in pale cheeks,
and red, weary eyes, the results of an excess of mental labour—an
excess which is as injurious as any other kind of intemperance, the moral
degradation alone kept out of view. Proud of his success, he sat down and
wrote a short note, with a simple statement of it, to David; hoping, in
his secret mind, that he would attribute his previous silence to an
absorption in study which had not existed before the end of the session
was quite at hand. Now that he had more time for reflection, he could not
bear the idea that that noble rustic face should look disapprovingly or,
still worse, coldly upon him; and he could not help feeling as if the old
ploughman had taken the place of his father, as the only man of whom he
must stand in awe, and who had a right to reprove him. He did reprove him
now, though unintentionally. For David was delighted at having such good
news from him; and the uneasiness which he had felt, but never quite
expressed, was almost swept away in the conclusion, that it was
unreasonable to expect the young man to give his time to them both absent
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