Those nights at sea the Professor's words were often in my mind. I was
terribly lonely, and I could stand by the hour at the ship's rail
looking into the heavens, and beyond them into the limitless spaces
where our vulgar minds have placed the home of the Great Spirit whose
mysterious purposes we fulfil. How infinitesimal seemed my own part in
that purpose, though I played it as best I could. I turned in vain to
those limitless spaces to ask why and for what I lived? Did I ask how
I should live, the answer came from the limitless spaces within me as
clearly as though written on this page. My mother had written it
there, unscientifically yet indelibly, in my boyhood days, and Mr.
Pound had added his few words, almost hidden beneath a mass of verbiage
about Ahasuerus, and before them my forebears had every one of them
left imprinted some sage injunction gained from their experience in
living. So I gathered my strength to do my best. But there was a lack
of definiteness in my purpose. There was no goal at which I aimed. In
my younger days I had had instilled into me the necessity of aspiring
to a particular height, to something concrete, to become a leader at
the bar, in politics or commerce, a Webster, a Clay, or a Girard. But
now I cared little if I never owned the paper for which I worked. The
task at hand alone interested me, and to that I bent every energy.
One task lay at my hand that year when I was in London, beside the
routine of my office, and now I undertook its completion for the
personal pleasure which it gave me to gather into concise form the
result of some years of study and patient digging for facts in
forgotten volumes and manuscripts. The result was surprising. The
book, offered to a publisher with diffident apology, raised a storm of
discussion in a half-dozen languages. To me it had been only a
pleasant intellectual exercise to trace "the habit of war" back to the
simple animal instincts of our ancestors; to follow the changing
methods of fighting from the days when men assailed one another with
stone axes to the modern expression of fighting intelligence in the
battleship; to show how, with every step which we had taken to
eradicate disease and alleviate suffering, we had taken two in refining
and organizing our power of destruction. I had facts and figures to
mark the steps in this twofold human progress, and to show the cost to
the race of a single century not only of warring, but of following the
sage injunction to be prepared for war in times of peace. Had I closed
my labor there, the book would have been lost on the shop-shelves; but
writing ironically, I went on to argue on the benefits of war and of
the necessity of the race continuing in the exercise of this elemental
passion. I had always abhorred preaching, and here to preach I used a
method of inversion, peppering my argument with platitudes on war as a
needed discipline for the spiritual in man by its lessons in fortitude
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