Fanny spoke slowly, still watching him:
“You’re such a nice man, George, and yet such a boy.”
“And you are divine and inexpressibly lovely and thrilling and
adorable....”
They kissed again, and stood there embraced until George felt dizzy
with the blood beating in his brain. He pulled her gently towards the
bed, and they lay down, clothed, in each other’s arms. George’s hand
moved tenderly and delicately over her uncorseted girl body, so warm
and firm and fragile under the thin cool silk dress. The incoherent
words of lovers gave place to silence, and they lay trembling in each
other’s arms, almost like frightened children comforting each other.
Fanny sighed, and opened her eyes.
“What time is it?”
George fumbled for his watch.
“Nearly half-past eight!”
“Heavens! We shall be too late for dinner if we don’t hurry.”
George went to get his coat, and returned to find Fanny unconcernedly
drawing her silk stockings tight and trim.
“Where can we go that’s near?”
“There’s a new place just started in Frith Street—we can go there.”
George watched her as she smoothed her mussed hair, and absorbedly
fitted on the large hat before the mirror. He was still trembling a
little, and noticed how steady her hands were. Only a few minutes
before they had been so close, all the barriers down, each existence
melted in the other. That had been perfect, complete happiness. “Had
been.” Already the current of ordinary life was sweeping them apart
again. Oh, not very far really, still within hailing distance. But very
far, compared with that wonderful nearness. Such an ecstasy could not
last. But why not? Perhaps one of the many bitter jests of the gods—to
show us for an hour what happiness might be if we were gods. None can
possess another, none can be possessed. Is it possible to give, is it
possible to take? Does one existence really melt into another for a few
minutes, or does it only seem to? What is she thinking now? Her mind
is as remote from mine as if she had slipped into another dimension.
Romantically we ask too much. It is much that she is lovely and finds
me desirable. Let us not ask too much. Enjoyment is enough. Yet how
fragile even that is! It is as if one tried to carry a small flickering
light in a thin glass vessel through a tumultuous hostile crowd. How
earnest is the world to suppress the delight of lovers! How bitterly
wrong all that is!
They went down into the warm, airless street, where the lamps were
already lighted. Dirty children still played noisily and screamed
on the side-walks. An Italian woman slip-slopped past them in felt
slippers, carrying a jug of beer. Soho smelled frowzy and stale. Fanny
noticed this.
“Why do you and Elizabeth live in this horrid district? It must be
awfully unhealthy, especially for Elizabeth.”
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