They were approaching the Belgian border. On the evening of the 3rd
of November Winterbourne with about twenty men rushed into the village
of K——, just as the Germans hastily retreated from the other end.
He had been ordered to occupy the place if possible, and to arrange
billets. He lodged his Company, placed guards and pickets and then went
through the cellars. The Germans were experts in placing booby-traps
which would explode if carelessly moved, and Winterbourne did not know
whether there might not be men concealed in the cellars to take them
unawares. He went down into cellar after cellar with his electric
torch, and was soon re-assured. The Germans had fled in such haste that
they had left their rifles and equipment in several cellars. The floors
were strewn with straw. On a table he found a half-finished letter,
abandoned in the middle of a sentence. In another a large black dog lay
dead—its owner had killed it with a bullet rather than leave it to
possible ill-treatment.
* * * * *
The Colonel explained the dispositions for the coming battle over a
map. The conference of officers took notes of the orders which were
very elaborate, but precise and clear. It was nearly half-past three
when they had finished, and zero hour was six-thirty. Winterbourne had
been on foot since five the morning before. His eyes smarted with lack
of sleep, and his mind was so dulled that he could scarcely comprehend
and write down his orders. He misspelled words as he scrawled down
notes in shaking deformed handwriting. He puzzled a long time over
map-references, and irritated the Colonel by repeatedly asking
questions.
They had an hour before they moved out to their battle positions. The
other officers hurried away to snatch an hour’s sleep. Winterbourne
felt utterly sleepy, but quite unable to sleep. The thought of another
battle, even with the dispirited and defeated German rear-guard, filled
him with shrinking dread. How face another barrage? He tried to write
letters to Fanny and Elizabeth, but his mind kept wandering away and he
could not collect his thoughts sufficiently to string together a few
banal sentences. He sat on a chair brought him by his servant, with his
head in his hands, staring at the straw and the dead black dog. He had
only one thought—peace. He must at least have peace. He was at the
very end of his endurance, had used up the last fraction of his energy
and strength. He wished he was one of the skeletons lying on Hill 91,
an anonymous body among the corpses lying outside in the street. He had
not even the courage to shoot himself with his revolver; and added that
last grain of self-contempt to his despair.
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