English fiction -- 20th century; English poetry -- 20th century; Short stories, English; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
A month later, and just after Michael had written Helen that there was
nothing special doing and therefore no need to worry, a shell-splinter
dropping out of a wet dawn killed him at once. The next shell uprooted
and laid down over the body what had been the foundation of a barn
wall, so neatly that none but an expert would have guessed that
anything unpleasant had happened.
* * * * *
By this time the village was old in experience of war, and, English
fashion, had evolved a ritual to meet it. When the postmistress handed
her seven-year-old daughter the official telegram to take to Miss
Turrell, she observed to the Rector’s gardener: “It’s Miss Helen’s turn
now.” He replied, thinking of his own son: “Well, he’s lasted longer
than some.” The child herself came to the front-door weeping aloud,
because Master Michael had often given her sweets. Helen, presently,
found herself pulling down the house-blinds one after one with great
care, and saying earnestly to each: “Missing _always_ means dead.”
Then she took her place in the dreary procession that was impelled to
go through an inevitable series of unprofitable emotions. The Rector,
of course, preached hope and prophesied word, very soon, from a prison
camp. Several friends, too, told her perfectly truthful tales, but
always about other women, to whom, after months and months of silence,
their missing had been miraculously restored. Other people urged her
to communicate with infallible Secretaries of organisations who could
communicate with benevolent neutrals, who could extract accurate
information from the most secretive of Hun prison commandants. Helen
did and wrote and signed everything that was suggested or put before
her.
Once, on one of Michael’s leaves, he had taken her over a munition
factory, where she saw the progress of a shell from blank-iron to
the all but finished article. It struck her at the time that the
wretched thing was never left alone for a single second; and “I’m being
manufactured into a bereaved next-of-kin,” she told herself, as she
prepared her documents.
In due course, when all the organisations had deeply or sincerely
regretted their inability to trace, etc., something gave way within her
and all sensation--save of thankfulness for the release--came to an end
in blessed passivity. Michael had died and her world had stood still
and she had been one with the full shock of that arrest. Now she was
standing still and the world was going forward, but it did not concern
her--in no way or relation did it touch her. She knew this by the ease
with which she could slip Michael’s name into talk and incline her head
to the proper angle, at the proper murmur of sympathy.
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