"I will, because it is the truth. For once, Hester, you must hear
another's mind; you have often told your own."
"God knows why I was saved yesterday," murmured Margaret; "for a more
desolate creature does not breathe."
Hope leaned against the wall. Hester relieved her torment of mind with
reproaches of Margaret.
"You do not trust me," she cried; "it is you who make me miserable. You
go to others for the comfort you ought to seek in me. You place that
confidence in others which ought to be mine alone. You are cheered when
you learn that the commonest gossips in Deerbrook care about you, and
you set no value on your own sister's feelings for you. You have faith
and charity for people out of doors, and mistrust and misconstruction
for those at home. I am the injured one, Margaret, not you."
"Margaret," said Hope, "your sister speaks for herself. I think that
you are the injured one, as Hester herself will soon agree. So far from
having anything to reproach you with, I honour your forbearance,--
unremitting till this hour,--I mourn that we cannot, if we would,
console you in return. But whatever I can do shall be done. Your
friendships, your pursuits, shall be protected. If we persecute your
affections at home, I will take care that you are allowed their exercise
abroad. Rely upon me, and do not think yourself utterly lonely while
you have a brother."
"I have been very selfish," said Margaret, recovering herself at the
first word of kindness; "wretchedness makes me selfish, I think."
She raised herself up on the sofa, and timidly held out her hand to her
sister. Hester thrust it away. Margaret uttered a cry of agony, such
as had never been heard from her since her childhood. Hope fell on the
floor--he had fainted at the sound.
Even now there was no one but Morris who understood it. Margaret
reproached herself bitterly for her selfishness--for her loss of the
power of self-control. Hester's remorse, however greater in degree, was
of its usual kind, strong and brief. She repeated, as she had done
before, that she made her husband wretched--that she should never have
another happy moment--that she wished he had never seen her. For the
rest of the day she was humbled, contrite, convinced that she should
give way to her temper no more. Her eyes filled when her husband spoke
tenderly to her, and her conduct to Margaret was one act of
supplication. But a lesser degree of this same kind of penitence had
produced no permanent good effect before; and there was no security that
the present paroxysm would have a different result.
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