Deering of Deal; Or, The Spirit of the SchoolGriswold, Latta
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Deering of Deal; Or, The Spirit of the School
Griswold, Latta
Boys -- Juvenile fiction; Schools -- Juvenile fiction
He sat for a long time on the edge of his couch with his face in his
hands, staring blankly in front of him. The world upon which his soul
looked out was as bare, as comfortless as his little room. He was
dumbly miserable. He knew he had hurt Deering, but just how, he could
not see. The fear that possessed him chiefly was that Deering would
throw him over. “And I did it because of him,” he would say now and
then between his clenched teeth. He could not understand Tony’s horror
of the deceit, he could not fathom his unwillingness to take advantage
of the information which he himself had risked so much to obtain. He
knew of course that he had done a wicked thing, but the wickedness
seemed almost justified because the temptation had been so strong. He
was sorriest about Wilson. As for the eavesdropping—when he thought
of that, he clenched his fists. If Roylston were successful! I may be
a sneak, he thought, but so is he. All was fair in war—and if Tony
didn’t get the Head Prefectship, whatever Tony might say or feel, war
it should be. “I’ll show him,” he muttered, conjuring up the vision of
Mr. Roylston reading _The Spectacle_ to his colleagues. “If he queers
Deering, I’ll get even with him whatever happens!”
When Tony returned to Number Five study he found that the boys had
left and that Jimmie had gone to bed. He undressed slowly, trying to
think out the situation. Of course, he had misjudged Finch almost from
the first, he realized that. The others were right. He was a difficult
case, too difficult for a place like Deal. He could not have believed,
had he not heard it from the boy’s own lips, that he could stoop to
such methods for revenge. But there it was! He had an actual situation
to deal with; a living soul, just so tempted, so weak, so corrupted
by misery, to help or hurt now by fresh judgments, which might be
right or wrong. That he had been too generous before toward Finch, was
no reason, however, with Tony, even for a moment, why he should be
ungenerous now. He must do his best. He hoped Finch would be willing
for him to talk it all over with Mr. Morris.
After a time, as he lay in bed, sleepless and still feverishly
thinking, his attention wandered from Finch to his own case, to the
facts, that, much as he wished to close his mind to them, were very
much there. It was hard to believe that Mr. Roylston was so bitterly
hostile, so absolutely unforgiving. His own conscience had long ceased
from troubling him about _The Spectacle_, and he wondered if the Head
could take Mr. Roylston’s point of view. He had forgiven himself in
that matter so completely, that he could hardly realize how it still
rankled with the offended master, how it might impress others. At last
he fell asleep, quite assured that things would right themselves and
confident that on the morrow he would learn that he had been appointed
Head Prefect.
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