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The sick girl’s hands lay on the counterpane; one of them moved as Emma
came to the bedside, and rested when the warmer fingers clasped it.
There was eager inquiry in the sunken eyes; her hand tried to raise
itself, but in vain.
‘What did Alice say?’ she asked, in quick feeble tones. ‘Is he coming?’
‘Not for Christmas, I’m afraid, dear. He’s still very busy.’
‘But he sent you a message?’
‘Yes. He would have come if he could.’
‘Did you tell Alice I wanted to see her? Why didn’t she come up? Why did
she stay such a short time?’
‘She couldn’t stay to-night, Jane. Are you easy still, love?’
‘Oh, I did so want to see her. Why couldn’t she stop, Emma? It wasn’t
kind of her to go without seeing me. I’d have made time if it had been
her as was lying in bed. And he doesn’t even answer what I wrote to him.
It was such work to write--I couldn’t now; and he might have answered.’
‘He very seldom writes to any one, you know, Jane. He has so little
time.’
‘Little time! I have less, Emma, and he must know that. It’s unkind of
him. What did Alice tell you? Why did he want her to go there? Tell me
everything.’
Emma felt the sunken eyes burning her with their eager look. She
hesitated, pretended to think of something that had to be done, and the
eyes burned more and more. Jane made repeated efforts to raise herself,
as if to get a fuller view of her sister’s face.
‘Shall I move you?’ Emma asked. ‘Would you like another pillow?’
‘No, no,’ was the impatient answer. ‘Don’t go away from me; don’t take
your hand away. I want to know all that Alice said. You haven’t any
secrets from me, Emmy. Why _does_ he stay away so long? It seems years
since he came to see you. It’s wrong of him. There’s no business ought
to keep him away all this time. Look at me, and tell me what she said.’
‘Only that he hadn’t time. Dear, you mustn’t excite yourself so. Isn’t
it all right, Jane, as long as I don’t mind it?’
‘Why do you look away from me? No, it isn’t all right. Oh, I can’t rest,
I can’t lie here! Why haven’t I strength to go and say to him what I
want to say? I thought it was him when the knock came. When Kate told
me it wasn’t, I felt as if my heart was sinking down; and I don’t seem
to have no tears left to cry. It ‘ud ease me a little if I could. And
now _you’re_ beginning to have secrets. Emmy!’
It was a cry of anguish. The mention of tears had brought them to Emma’s
eyes, for they lurked very near the surface, and Jane had seen the
firelight touch on a moist cheek. For an instant she raised herself
from the pillows. Emma folded soft arms about her and pressed her cheek
against the heat which consumed her sister’s.
‘Emmy, I must know,’ wailed the sick girl. ‘Is it what I’ve been afraid
of? No, not that! Is it the worst of all? You must tell me now. You
don’t love me if you keep away the truth. I can’t have anything between
you and me.’
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