England -- Fiction; Socialism -- Fiction; Socialists -- Fiction
Adela was at Exmouth, drinking the mild air, wondering whether there was
in truth a life to come, and, if so, whether it was a life wherein Love
and Duty were at one. A year ago such thoughts could not have entered
her mind. But she had spent several weeks in close companionship with
Stella Westlake, and Stella’s influence was subtle. Mrs. Westlake had
come here to regain strength after a confinement; the fact drew her near
to Adela, whose time for giving birth to a child was not far off.
Adela at first regarded this friend with much the same feeling of awe
as mingled with Letty’s affection for Adela herself. Stella Westlake
was not only possessed of intellectual riches which Adela had had no
opportunity of gaining; her character was so full of imaginative force,
of dreamy splendours, that it addressed itself to a mind like Adela’s
with magic irresistible and permanent. No rules of the polite world
applied to Stella; she spoke and acted with an independence so
spontaneous that it did not suggest conscious opposition to the received
ways of thought to which ordinary women are confined, but rather a
complete ignorance of them. Adela felt herself startled, but never
shocked, even when the originality went most counter to her own
prejudices; it was as though she had drunk a draught of most unexpected
flavour, the effect of which was to set her nerves delightfully
trembling, and make her long to taste it again. It was not an
occasional effect, the result of an effort on Stella’s part to surprise
or charm; the commonest words had novel meanings when uttered in her
voice; a profound sincerity seemed to inspire every lightest question
or remark. Her presence was agitating; she had but to enter the room and
sit in silence, and Adela forthwith was raised from the depression of
her broodings to a vividness of being, an imaginative energy, such as
she had never known. Adela doubted for some time whether Stella regarded
her with affection; the little demonstrations in which women are wont to
indulge were incompatible with that grave dreaminess, and Stella seemed
to avoid even the common phrases of friendship. But one day, when Adela
had not been well enough to rise, and as she lay on the borderland of
sleeping and waking, she half dreamt, half knew, that a face bent over
her, and that lips were pressed against her own; and such a thrill
struck through her that, though now fully conscious, she had not power
to stir, but lay as in the moment of some rapturous death. For when the
presence entered into her dream, when the warmth melted upon her lips,
she imagined it the kiss which might once have come to her but now was
lost for ever. It was pain to open her eyes, but when she did so, and
met Stella’s silent gaze, she knew that love was offered her, a love of
which it was needless to speak.
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