England -- Fiction; Socialism -- Fiction; Socialists -- Fiction
Whatever might be her secret suffering, with the little ones Emma was
invariably patient and tender. However dirty they had made, themselves
during the day, however much they cried when hunger made them irritable,
they went to their aunt’s side with the assurance of finding gentleness
in reproof and sympathy with their troubles. Yet once she was really
angry. Bertie told her a deliberate untruth, and she at once discovered
it. She stood silent for a few moments, looking as Bertie had never seen
her look. Then she said:
‘Do you know, Bertie, that it is wrong to try and deceive?’
Then she tried to, make him understand why falsehood was evil, and as
she spoke to the child her voice quivered, her breast heaved. When the
little fellow was overcome, and began to sob, Emma checked herself,
recollecting that she had lost sight of the offender’s age, and was
using expressions which he could not understand. But the lesson was
effectual. If ever the brother and sister were tempted to hide anything
by a falsehood they remembered ‘Aunt Emma’s’ face, and durst not incur
the danger of her severity.
So she told her stories to the humming of the machine, and when it was
nearly the children’s bedtime she broke off to ask them if they would
like some bread and butter. Among all the results of her poverty the
bitterest to Emma was when she found herself _hoping that the children
would not eat much_. If their appetite was poor it made her anxious
about their health, yet it happened sometimes that she feared to ask
them if they were hungry lest the supply of bread should fail. It was so
to-night. The week’s earnings had been three shillings; the rent itself
was four. But the children were as ready to eat as if they had had no
tea. It went to her heart to give them each but one half-slice and tell
them that they could have no more. Gladly she would have robbed herself
of breakfast next morning on their account, but that she durst not do,
for she had undertaken to scrub out an office in Goswell Road, and she
knew that her strength would fail if she went from home fasting.
She put them to bed--they slept together on a small bedstead, which was
a chair during the day--and then sat down to do some patching at a
dress of Kate’s. Her face when she communed with her own thoughts was
profoundly sad, but far from the weakness of self-pity. Indeed she
did her best not to think of herself; she knew that to do so cost her
struggles with feelings she held to be evil, resentment and woe of
passion and despair. She tried to occupy herself solely with her sister
and the children, planning how to make Kate more home-loving and how to
find the little ones more food.
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