Lady's maids -- Fiction; Love stories; Wessex (England) -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
But Edward was not in the chantry. As he had come, so he had gone,
nobody could tell how or whither.
4. AFTERNOON
It might almost have been believed that a transmutation had taken place
in Cytherea’s idiosyncrasy, that her moral nature had fled.
The wedding-party returned to the house. As soon as he could find an
opportunity, Owen took his sister aside to speak privately with her
on what had happened. The expression of her face was hard, wild, and
unreal--an expression he had never seen there before, and it disturbed
him. He spoke to her severely and sadly.
‘Cytherea,’ he said, ‘I know the cause of this emotion of yours. But
remember this, there was no excuse for it. You should have been woman
enough to control yourself. Remember whose wife you are, and don’t
think anything more of a mean-spirited fellow like Springrove; he had
no business to come there as he did. You are altogether wrong, Cytherea,
and I am vexed with you more than I can say--very vexed.’
‘Say ashamed of me at once,’ she bitterly answered.
‘I am ashamed of you,’ he retorted angrily; ‘the mood has not left you
yet, then?’
‘Owen,’ she said, and paused. Her lip trembled; her eye told of
sensations too deep for tears. ‘No, Owen, it has not left me; and I will
be honest. I own now to you, without any disguise of words, what last
night I did not own to myself, because I hardly knew of it. I love
Edward Springrove with all my strength, and heart, and soul. You call me
a wanton for it, don’t you? I don’t care; I have gone beyond caring for
anything!’ She looked stonily into his face and made the speech calmly.
‘Well, poor Cytherea, don’t talk like that!’ he said, alarmed at her
manner.
‘I thought that I did not love him at all,’ she went on hysterically. ‘A
year and a half had passed since we met. I could go by the gate of his
garden without thinking of him--look at his seat in church and not care.
But I saw him this morning--dying because he loves me so--I know it is
that! Can I help loving him too? No, I cannot, and I will love him, and
I don’t care! We have been separated somehow by some contrivance--I know
we have. O, if I could only die!’
He held her in his arms. ‘Many a woman has gone to ruin herself,’ he
said, ‘and brought those who love her into disgrace, by acting upon such
impulses as possess you now. I have a reputation to lose as well as you.
It seems that do what I will by way of remedying the stains which fell
upon us, it is all doomed to be undone again.’ His voice grew husky as
he made the reply.
The right and only effective chord had been touched. Since she had
seen Edward, she had thought only of herself and him. Owen--her
name--position--future--had been as if they did not exist.
‘I won’t give way and become a disgrace to _you_, at any rate,’ she
said.
‘Besides, your duty to society, and those about you, requires that you
should live with (at any rate) all the appearance of a good wife, and
try to love your husband.’
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