New England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Women -- New England -- Fiction
ways lately hard to bear. The minister, she knew instinctively, would
not let a rough wind blow on her face; at his side neither criticism
nor any sort of human annoyance could reach her; she would have only
her own deep heart-sorrow to bear on to the end. But what sort of
justice was this towards him? Diana lifted her head, which had been
sunk in musing, and looked round. She had heard nothing for a while;
now the swirl and rush of the storm were the first thing that struck
her senses; and the first thought, that no getting away was possible
yet; then she glanced at Mr. Masters. He was there near her, just as
usual, looking at her quietly.
"Mr. Masters," she burst forth, "you are very good!"
"That is right," he said, with a sort of dry comicality which belonged
to him, "I hope you will never change your opinion."
"But," said Diana, withdrawing her eyes in some confusion, "I think I
am not. I think I am doing wrong."
"In what?"
"In letting you say what you said a little while ago. You have a heart,
and a big one. I have not any heart at all. I can't give you what you
would give me; I haven't got it to give. I never shall have anything to
give."
"The case being so as you put it," said the minister quite quietly,
"what then? You cannot change the facts. I cannot take back what I have
given; it was given long ago, Diana, and remains yours. The least you
can do, is to let me have what is left of you and take care of it.
While I live I will do that, and ask no reward."
"You will get tired of it," said Diana, with her lip trembling.
"Will I?" said he, taking her hand. And he added no more, but through
the gentle, almost careless intonation, Diana felt and knew the very
truth, that he never would. She left her hand in his clasp; that too
was gentle and firm, like the man; he seemed a tower of strength to
Diana. If only she could have loved him! Yet she thought she was glad
that he loved her. He was something to lean upon; some one who would be
able to give help. They sat so, hand in hand, for a while, the storm
roaring against the windows and howling round the building.
"Don't you think," the minister began again with a tender, light
accent, "it will be part of my permanent duty to preach to you?"
"I dare say; I am sure I want it enough," said Diana.
"Is not this a good opportunity?"
"I suppose it is. We cannot get away."
"Never mind; the wind will go down by and by. It has been blowing on
purpose to keep us here. Diana, do you think a good God made any of his
creatures to be unhappy?"
"I don't know, Mr. Masters. He lets them be unhappy."
"It is not his will."
"But he takes away what would make them happy?"
"What do you think would do that?"
"I suppose it is one thing with one person, and another with another."
"True; but take an instance."
"It is mother's happiness to have her farm and her dairy and her house
go just right."
"Is she happy if it does?"
"She is very uncomfortable if it don't."
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