New England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Women -- New England -- Fiction
"O, I do!" said Diana. "I cannot think of anything lovelier than to see
those faces change with the knowledge of Christ."
"Then you would be willing to leave our present field of work?"
"It does not seem to want us as this does--not by many fold."
"Would your mother leave Pleasant Valley?"
"No."
"How, then, Di, about you?
"The first question is duty, Basil."
"I think mine is to come here."
"Then it must be mine," said Diana, with a sort of disappointment upon
her that he should speak in that way.
"And would it be your pleasure too?"
"Why, certainly. Basil, I cannot _imagine_ pleasure to be apart from
duty."
"Thank you," he said gently. "And I thank God, who has brought you so
far in your lesson-learning as to know that."
Diana said no more. She was ready to cry, with the feeling that her
husband thought himself to have so little to do with her pleasure.
Tears, however, were not much in her way, and she did not shed any, but
she speculated. _Had_ he really to do with her pleasure? It was
different certainly once. She had craved to be at a distance from him;
she could remember the time well; but the time was past. Was it
reasonable to expect him to know that fact? He had thoroughly learned
the bitter truth that her heart was not his, and could never be his;
what should tell him that the conditions of things were changed. _Were_
they changed? Diana was in great confusion. She began to think she did
not know herself. She did not hate Mr. Masters any more; nay, she
declared to herself she never had hated him; she always had liked him;
only then she had loved Evan Knowlton, and now that was gone. She did
not love anybody. There was no reason in the world why Mr. Masters
should not be contented. "I think," said Diana to herself, "I give him
enough of my heart to content him. I wonder what would content him? I
do not care two straws for anybody else in all the world. He would say,
if I told him that, he would say it is a negative proposition. Suppose
I could go further"--and Diana's cheeks began to burn--"suppose I
could, I could not possibly stand up and tell him so. I cannot. He
ought to see it for himself. But he does not. He ought to be
contented--I think he might be contented--with what I give him, if it
isn't just"--
Diana broke off with her thoughts very much disturbed. She thought she
did not love her husband, but things were no longer clear; except that
Basil's persistent ignorance of the fact that they had changed, chafed
and distressed her.
CHAPTER XXXVI.
THE PARTY.
The morning of the next day was spent in still further visits to still
more mills. Mr. Brandt was much struck with the direction his guests'
attention seemed to take.
"You are very fond of machinery," he remarked to Diana.
"Yes--I don't know much about it," she answered.
"Surely that is not true after these two or three days' work?"
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