"That's the way he goes on," said Mrs. Swayne. "Mornin', noon, and
night. Never a bit of peace, except when he gets into his prayin' fits.
I expect he'll go off in one of them tantrums."
It did not appear unlikely that he would "go off" then and there, but
after a few moments a sort of ghastly life seemed to return. Even death
did not appear to take to him. He opened his eyes, and looked round
bewildered. Then his head fell forward.
"Now's yer time," said the woman. "Before he gets up steam for another
of them rages. Parson comes and twitters a bit when he's in this way;
and he'll pray very heavy while he recollects hisself, until he goes off
again. He'll be better now for a spell," and she left the room, and
creaked ponderously downstairs again. Colonel Tempest advanced a step
nearer the lair on which poor Swayne was taking his last rest but one,
and said faintly:
"Swayne. I say, Swayne. Rouse up."
The only things that roused up were Swayne's eyelids. These certainly
trembled a little.
In the next house the accordion was beginning a new tune, was
designating Jerusalem as its ha-appy home.
Apprehensive terror for himself as usual overcame other feelings. It
overcame in this instance the unspeakable repugnance Colonel Tempest
felt to approaching any nearer. He touched the prostrate man on the
shoulder with the slender white hand which had served him so exclusively
from boyhood upwards, which had never wavered in its fidelity to him to
do a hand's turn for others, which shrinkingly did his bidding now.
"Wake up, Swayne," repeated Colonel Tempest, actually stooping over him.
"Wake up, for----," he was going to add "heaven's sake;" but the thought
of heaven in connection with Swayne seemed inappropriate; and he
altered it to "for mercy's sake," which sounded just as well.
"Is it the parson?" asked Swayne feebly, in a more natural voice.
"No, no," said Colonel Tempest reassuringly. "It's only me, a friend.
It's Colonel Tempest."
"I wish it _was_ the parson," repeated Swayne, seeming to emerge
somewhat from his torpor. "He might have come and let off a few more
prayers for me. He says it's all right if I repent, and I suppose he
knows; but it don't seem likely. Don't seem as if God _could_ be greened
quite as easy as parson makes out. I should have liked to throw off a
few more prayers so as to be on the safe side," and he began to mutter
incoherently.
As a man lives so, it is said, he generally dies. Swayne seemed to
remain true to his own interests, only his aspect of those interests
had altered. He felt the awkwardness of going into court absolutely
unprepared. Prayer was cheap if it could do what he wanted, and he had
had professional advice as to its efficacy. A man who all his life can
grovel before his fellow-creatures, may as well do a little grovelling
before his Creator at the last, if anything is to be got by it.
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