Those who had known Colonel Tempest best, those few who had
misunderstood and loved him, had often pondered with grave anxiety, or
with the wistful perplexity of wounded affection, as to what it was in
him that being so impressionable was yet incapable of any real
impression. His wife may or may not have mastered that expensive secret.
At any rate, she had had opportunities of studying it. When first, a few
weeks after her marriage, she had fallen ill, she, poor fool, had
suffered agonies from the fear that because he hardly came into her
sick-room after the first day, he had ceased to care for her. But when
after a few days more she was feeling better and was pretty and
interesting again in a pink wrapper on the sofa, she had found that he
was as devoted to her as ever, and had confided her foolish dread to him
with happy tears. Possibly she discovered at last that the secret lay
not so much in the selfishness and self-indulgence of a character
moth-eaten by idleness, as in the instant and invariable recoil of the
mind from any subject that threatened to prove disagreeable, the
determination to avoid everything irksome, wearisome, or reproachful.
For a moment, while it was quite new, a sentiment might be indulged in.
But as soon as a certain novelty and pleasure in emotion ceased the
feeling itself was shirked, at whatever expense to others. Those who
shirk are ill to live with, and lay up for themselves an increasing
loneliness as life goes on.
Colonel Tempest found it unpleasant to think about Swayne, so he thought
of something else. He could always do that unless he himself was
concerned. Then, indeed, as we have seen, it was a different thing. He
was annoyed when, after slowly picking his way back to the station, he
found the last passenger train had just gone; that even if he drove
fifteen miles in to Worcester he should be too late to catch the last
express to London; in fact, that there was nothing for it but a bed at
the station inn. He found, however, that by making a very early start
from Bilgewater the following morning he could reach London by noon, and
so resigned himself to his lot with composure. He had hardly expected he
should be able to go and return in one day.
It was indeed early when he walked across to the station next morning,
so early that there was a suspicion of freshness in the air, of colour
in the eastern sky.
On a heap of slag a motionless figure was sitting, black against the sky
line, looking towards the east. It was the curate, who when he perceived
Colonel Tempest, came crunching and flapping in his long coat tails down
to the road below, raised his hat from a meagre clerical brow, and held
out his hand. His face was thin and poor, suggestive of a starved mind
and cold mutton and Pearson on the Creed, but the smile redeemed it.
"It is all over," he said; "half an hour ago. Quite quietly at the
last. I stayed with him through the night. I never left him. We prayed
together without ceasing."
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