names of towns, rivers, and lakes, her mileages _à faire mourir_, and
her insufferable tale of flax and jute. With an equal firmness your
early power of supple and bright-coloured speech may be taken away and a
rag-bag of feeble stock phrases, misfits for all your thoughts, and worn
dull and dirty by everyone else, be forced upon you instead of the
treasure you had. You may leave school unable to tell what stars are
about you at night or to ask your way to a journey's end in any country
but your own. Between your helpless mind and most of your
fellow-countrymen thick screens of division are drawn, so that when you
are fifteen you do not know how to speak to them with a natural
courtesy; you have a vague idea that they will steal your watch if you
leave it about. Above all, you have learnt that it is still "bad form"
to work; that the youth with brains and no money may well be despised by
the youth with money and no brains; that the absorbed student or artist
is ignoble or grotesque; that to be able to afford yourself "a good
time" is a natural title to respect and regard; and that to give
yourself any "good time" that you can is an action of spirit. So it went
on at prep. school, public school, Sandhurst, Camberley. That was how
Staff College French came to be what it was. And as it was what it was,
you can guess what Staff College tactics and strategy were, and why all
the little brown bundles lay where they did in the nettles and grass.
IV
You are more aware of the stars in war than in peace. A full moon may
quite halve the cares of a sentry; the Pole Star will sometimes be all
that a company has, when relieved, to guide it back across country to
Paradisiac rest; sleeping often under the sky, you come to find out for
yourself what nobody taught you at school--how Orion is sure to be not
there in summer, and Aquila always missing in March, and how the Great
Bear, that was straight overhead in the April nights, is wont to hang
low in the north in the autumn. Childish as it may seem to the wise, a
few years' nightly view of these and other invariable arrangements may
give a simple soul a surprisingly lively twinge of what the ages of
faith seem to have meant by the fear of God--the awesome suspicion that
there is some sort of fundamental world order or control which cannot by
any means be put off or dodged or bribed to help you to break its own
laws. "Anything," the old Regular warrant-officers say, "can be wangled
in the army," but who shall push the Dragon or the Great Dog off his
beat? And--who knows?--that may be only a part of a larger system of
cause and effect, all of it as hopelessly undodgable.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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