British -- Germany -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction
"There was only one way for me to go, and you had to choose whether you
would follow me or go back. I wonder how you would have chosen? Thank
God, you need not be put to the test. I could not have borne to see you
suffer. When you receive this you will know that you are free and can
go back to your own people and your own country. It is that freedom
from which I hope more than I would dare to hope if I went to you now.
You will be able to forgive me because it is easy to forgive those who
have passed out of one’s life for ever. You see, I know that I need
forgiveness. In my selfishness I tempted you into a life too full of
sacrifice and hardship, and I failed you, my darling, sometimes because
I was too miserable to see clearly, sometimes because I did not
understand, but never because I did not love you. Forgive me, then, and
perhaps—if you can—let a little of the old love revive. It can do no
harm, and it makes me happy to think that it is possible.
"Do not try to find out how this has all happened. All you need know is
that I am to fight a duel to-morrow, and that the chances are against
me. I know you despise duelling, but this time it has at least its
use—it will set you free.
"This is a poor letter, dearest, in which I have said only half of all I
long to say. If you read in it one word of reproach or regret, believe
that it is only my clumsy pen which has failed me, and that I have
nothing in my heart but love for you. In all I am to blame, and I am
glad that it has been spared me to see you suffer. Do not be sad over
all that has happened; do not let it cast a shadow over your life. You
have given a few months’ happiness to a man who has never for one
instant counted the price too high. You made me very happy. Let that
be my thanks to you.
"God bless you, my little English wife! In my mind’s eye I can see you
sitting at your table in the next room, with your heart full of
bitterness against me; or perhaps you are thinking of—— No, I will not
believe that. I would rather believe that it is only bitterness, only
sorrow because you are torn between your country and your husband, and
can find no peace. The peace is yours now; and when the time comes for
you to find your happiness in that old love, remember that I understood
and that I blessed you.
"WOLFF VON ARNIM.
"P.S.—The Selenecks are your friends, and have promised to help you.
Trust them implicitly."
Nora lifted her eyes to Hildegarde’s. The two women who a short
half-hour before had confronted each other in hatred and defiance now
met on the common ground of a great sorrow. The barriers between them
were yielding fast, were being swept aside. Their hands met, and that
touch broke down the last restraint. The next instant they were clasped
in each other’s arms.
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