France -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
That night, however, Pascal noticed that Clotilde was feverish; this
was the hour in which they exchanged confidences, and she ventured to
tell him of her anxiety on his account, on her own, on that of the
whole house. What was going to become of them when all their resources
should be exhausted? For a moment she thought of speaking to him of his
mother. But she was afraid, and she contented herself with confessing
to him what she and Martine had done—the old register examined, the
bills made out and sent, the money asked everywhere in vain. In other
circumstances he would have been greatly annoyed and very angry at this
confession; offended that they should have acted without his knowledge,
and contrary to the attitude he had maintained during his whole
professional life. He remained for a long tine silent, strongly
agitated, and this would have sufficed to prove how great must be his
secret anguish at times, under his apparent indifference to poverty.
Then he forgave Clotilde, clasping her wildly to his breast, and
finally he said that she had done right, that they could not continue
to live much longer as they were living, in a destitution which
increased every day. Then they fell into silence, each trying to think
of a means of procuring the money necessary for their daily wants, each
suffering keenly; she, desperate at the thought of the tortures that
awaited him; he unable to accustom himself to the idea of seeing her
wanting bread. Was their happiness forever ended, then? Was poverty
going to blight their spring with its chill breath?
At breakfast, on the following day, they ate only fruit. The doctor was
very silent during the morning, a prey to a visible struggle. And it
was not until three o’clock that he took a resolution.
“Come, we must stir ourselves,” he said to his companion. “I do not
wish you to fast this evening again; so put on your hat, we will go out
together.”
She looked at him, waiting for an explanation.
“Yes, since they owe us money, and have refused to give it to you, I
will see whether they will also refuse to give it to me.”
His hands trembled; the thought of demanding payment in this way, after
so many years, evidently made him suffer terribly; but he forced a
smile, he affected to be very brave. And she, who knew from the
trembling of his voice the extent of his sacrifice, had tears in her
eyes.
“No, no, master; don’t go if it makes you suffer so much. Martine can
go again.”
But the servant, who was present, approved highly of monsieur’s
intention.
“And why should not monsieur go? There’s no shame in asking what is
owed to one, is there? Every one should have his own; for my part, I
think it quite right that monsieur should show at last that he is a
man.”
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