The next few weeks show a pathetic struggle against a growing sense of weakness. At first she blamed herself if duty was neglected, then as she knew herself to be ill, still felt that more might have been done, refusing to take sickness as an excuse. There are many living who were at College at this period, and to them the picture of this effort and suffering going on in the background of all that then seemed unfailingly vital and positive must have a double interest,—increasing tenderness for the memory of her who for their sakes was bearing a daily burden of pain, encouraging to fresh zeal by showing what a brave spirit may do even in weakness and depression. A few extracts to show this follow:— ‘Jan. 26. Nothing of real work done since school, and but little in the morning. ” 31. Inattentive. Spoke unkindly without cause. Irritable. Feb. 3. Did not do best for literature class. Felt feeble and did not try as I ought. ” 9. [There] ought to be more industry in writing for Saturday lectures. The night cometh. ” 11. I grieve for the stupid lesson I gave Division III., because not well prepared. ” 14. Still great waste of time. How much have I to learn in this little time of life left to me. ” 15. Too much depressed, feeling I _can’t_. Perhaps more variety and exercise wanted. Certainly more trust and energy. ” 16. More than one hour wasted in idle thoughts, 5-6 A.M., and yet I have work for others which I ought to have thought of, and lessons. I deserve to be left without help. _Evening._ Not much matter or order in lessons. Tired and discontented with self. Neglect of books. More trust and energy wanted. ” 26. I have idled away precious time, neglected individual work. Because my own will is weak, I could not strengthen [another]. ” 27. In bed all day. There are duties still undone, though I see death near. ” 28. Not in College. Much time wasted and [I was] disobedient to the voice of duty. March 1. Still great waste of energy in idle thoughts. Talk of zeal but no religious work done to-day, though there are so many individuals I am ever putting off. ” 2. Omitted teachers’ class, which with less of idle thoughts I might have done. ” 5. Too exhausted to do much. Give me true contrition for the past. ” 6. Time not well used in afternoon. Letter to Miss Clarke. ” 14. Was ill last night. Almost no individual work. ” 15. A little more work for my children to-day. I thank Thee for some help. May I consecrate time and energies to Thee.