And then he bade good-bye to Olive. Only a pressure of the hand, and a
look into each other's eyes--no sweet, clinging embrace. An
unceremonious good-bye, as between people who expect to meet again in
the course of the same day, no murmured word of love and trust and
moving farewell. Yet perhaps it was better so. A little nod and a
bright smile as she turned away, and thus they parted, these two.
Little recked they how and where they would meet again.
Roland turned away in a very restless, dissatisfied frame of mind.
Everything seemed to be working round unfavourably. The rector might
not return home till late, and meanwhile he was condemned to these hours
of waiting. Though cool enough in an emergency, he was of a nervous
disposition, and uncertainty and inaction in a matter of this kind was
intolerable. Everything assumed an exaggerated aspect. What if the
rector should, after all, refuse his consent? Hitherto he had not
believed Dr Ingelow would offer any serious opposition; now, on turning
things over, it seemed first possible, then only too probable, that he
might. And Olive--he felt pretty certain she would, however
reluctantly, refuse to disregard her father's wishes, once they were
clearly laid down; nor in his heart of hearts would he have desired that
she should, paradoxical as it may seem. Lovers are proverbially
selfish, and it might be that Roland Dorrien was less so than the
general man. He had lived his life very much alone, with the result
that he had thought much, and developed a maturity of judgment
considerably beyond his years. How could he expect this girl to give up
her bright, happy home--how happy he himself had had ample opportunity
of observing--to wound, beyond all healing, those who had surrounded her
life with every tenderness and care, at the bidding of one whom, six
months ago, she had hardly heard of? He knew that he had won her heart
as no man would ever again win it, yet he would despise himself were he
to require such a sacrifice of her. No, the only thing would be to wait
for more favourable times.
So the afternoon wore on, and his restlessness increased more and more.
He could not read, thinking was worse, and there was no one to talk to.
Well, he would stroll round towards the Rectory again. This time luck
favoured him. As he approached it he caught sight of Dr Ingelow coming
from the opposite direction, and the two met at the gate.
"Ah, I was half expecting you yesterday," said the rector, as they shook
hands. "But come into the study. There we shan't be disturbed."
"And I fully intended to have returned yesterday," replied Roland, when
they were seated. "But the fact is, my father didn't get back till
late, and I had no opportunity of speaking to him until this morning."
"Yes. And--"
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