“No,—not purposely. And if you did, it’s over now. You have rejected
me. I understand that. There’s no reason why you shouldn’t. And I can
hold my tongue.” He did not turn, but looked steadily past her at the
boat’s head.
An emotion stirred in her breast which took the form of a reproach.
“Was it fair, then, to say this when neither of us could escape
afterwards?”
“I didn’t mean to speak,” he said, without looking up, “and I never
meant to place you where you couldn’t escape.”
It was true that she had proposed to go with him in the boat, and that
she had chosen to come back with him, when he had offered to have her
driven home from Leyden. “No, you are not to blame,” she said, at last.
“I asked to some with you. Shall I tell you why?” Her voice began to
break. In her pity for him and her shame for herself the tears started
to her eyes. She did not press her question, but, “Thank you for
reminding me that I invited myself to go with you,” she said, with
feeble bitterness.
He looked up at her in silent wonder, and she broke into a sob. He said
gently, “I don’t suppose you expect me to deny that. You don’t think me
such a poor dog as that.”
“Why, of course not,” she answered, with quivering lips, while she
pressed her handkerchief to her eyes.
“I was only too glad to have you come. I always meant to tell you—what
I have told; but not when I should seem to trap you into listening.”
“No,” she murmured, “I can believe that of you. I do believe it. I take
back what I said. Don’t let us speak of it any more now,” she
continued, struggling for her lost composure, with what success
appeared in the fresh outburst with which she recognized his
forbearance to hint at any painfulness to himself in the situation.
“I don’t mind it so much on my account, but oh! how _could_ you for
your own sake? _Do_ let us get home as fast as we can!”
“I am doing everything I can to release you,” he said. “If you will sit
here,” he added, indicating the place beside him in the stern, “you
won’t have to change so much when I want to tack.”
She took the other seat, and for the first time she noticed that the
wind had grown very light. She watched him with a piteous impatience
while he shifted the sail from side to side, keeping the sheet in his
hand for convenience in the frequent changes. He scanned the sky, and
turned every current of the ebbing tide to account. It was useless; the
boat crept, and presently it scarcely moved.
“The wind is down,” he said, making the sheet fast, and relaxing his
hold on the tiller.
“And—And the tide is going out!” she exclaimed.
“The tide is going out,” he admitted.
“If we should get caught on these flats,” she began, with rising
indignation.
“We should have to stay till the tide turned.”
She looked wildly about for aid. If there were a row-boat anywhere
within hail, she could be taken to Jocelyn’s in that. But they were
quite alone on those lifeless waters.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account