“He wants to marry me because he knows that I can’t fulfil my plans of
life alone, and because we could fulfil them together. We shall not
only be husband and wife, but we shall be physicians in partnership. I
may continue a homœopath, he says, and the State Medical Association
may go to the devil.” She used his language, that would have been
shocking to her ordinary moods, without blenching, and in their common
agitation her mother accepted it as fit and becoming. “He counts upon
my accepting him because I must see it as my duty, and my conscience
won’t let me reject the only opportunity I shall have of doing some
good and being of some use in the world. What do you think I ought to
do, mother?”
“There’s reason in what he says. It is an opportunity. You _could_ be
of use, in that way, and perhaps it’s the only way. Yes,” she
continued, fascinated by the logic of the position, and its
capabilities for vicarious self-sacrifice. “I don’t see how you can get
out of it: You have spent years and years of study, and a great deal of
money, to educate yourself for a profession that you’re too weak to
practise alone. You can’t say that I ever advised your doing it. It was
your own idea, and I didn’t oppose it. But when you’ve gone so far,
you’ve formed an obligation to go on. It’s your duty not to give up, if
you know of any means to continue. That’s your duty, as plain as can
be. To say nothing of the wicked waste of your giving up now, you’re
bound to consider the effect it would have upon other women who are
trying to do something for themselves. The only thing,” she added, with
some misgiving, “is whether you believe he was in earnest and would
keep his word to you.”
“I think he was secretly laughing at me, and that he would expect to
laugh me out of his promise.”
“Well, then, you ought to take time to reflect, and you ought to be
sure that you’re right about him.”
“Is that what you really think, mother?”
“I am always governed by reason, Grace, and by right; and I have
brought you up on that plan. If you have ever departed from it, it has
not been with my consent, nor for want of my warning. I have simply
laid the matter before you.”
“Then you wish me to marry him?”
This was perhaps a point that had not occurred to Mrs. Breen in her
recognition of the strength of Dr. Mulbridge’s position. It was one
thing to trace the path of duty; another to support the aspirant in
treading it. “You ought to take time to reflect,” Mrs. Breen repeated,
with evasion that she never used in behalf of others.
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